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JOLYNN CHEW

A goddamn PERFECTIONIST
loves to be doted on like a PRINCESS
Looks for SINCERITY, SUPPORT, UNDERSTANDING in a person
she Is MATERIALISTIC
LOVES belle, and that's FOREVER.
EASY to talk to, but HARD to please.


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If your heart is in your dream, no request is too extreme. :)

SHE WANTS ........................

to be a little more successful
to be carefree
to receive flowers heehee !!
surprises and more surprises !!

ACHIEVED WISHES

a new laptop
chio laptop case
more nice clothes =D
a new phone DATED Nov 2009

UN-ACHIEVED ONES

laser treatment for my face
SNSD concert tickets
holidays to Thailand, HK, UK, US, Aussie and China?
go overseas with my love one DATED long ago
unlimited slimming sessions LOL DATED since young
BURBERRY wallet DATED Mar 2008
GUCCI LV bag DATED Aug 2009
a new phone DATED Nov 2009
CANON IXUS 130 in orange DATED Mar 2010
hotel stayovers DATED June 2010


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Saturday, February 14, 2009
@ 7:32 AM

when humans sometimes overlook the heart,
the truth is deemed as poison darts.
meanings are lost,
reduced to ash,
cremated by fire,
burnt by the deep-seated animosities,
coming from within our hearts.


humans are defensive for the fact that we have to be.
always vainly distressed and mortified to seek avoidance of the foreordained,
relentlessly flinching away from potential blows to our ego, and the exposure of our shortcomings.

we live everyday in chagrine yet denial,
a delusive form of life.
oh the love we kept for ourselves too much,
to love any other just as much.

quixotic, we always are.


in our deeds you preach,
we make sure you bleed.
the mounting sense of fatality in us,
from the ceaseless haunts
of your 'poison darts'.
thus bringing around endless aversion and acerbity,
which in time turns to exasperation and malice.

the more you try to unravel our esoteric hearts,
the more we can't hear you out.
we are 'never' what you say,
we disallow it to come true 'your way'.

leave the dark secrets as they are,
for even the slightest ripple they can hear from far,
eradicates sanity in the mind,
also the engulfed saint that was once in our hearts.
it was never worth the price we pay,
but what was it that made us sway?

when no one in the whole wide world buys your word,
save the hassle and futile strength you use to explicate.
because at the end of the day, it's the heart that will speak for us so.
when everything start to seem awry,
do not weep with your tear stained eyes,
do not panick with your forlorn heart.
calm yourself in still and peace,
and seek solace in surreality.
cause no matter what the mouths may say,
and no matter come what may,
the true heart, will eventually avow at the end.

give them some time to trust you again.
don't try so hard till it's so pain,
leave yourself some space to breathe.
there's always something in due for you,
solely for you to see.
so patiently let it bring you,
the sacred answers of the heart.



don't ask me why the hell am i randomly writing all these now LOL, i just happen not to be in unconcious state. for the past two days, my muscle 'arrest' thingy relapse again. it's not that serious as it sounds, but rather unbearable. people say it's muscle cramp, so i shall just take it as it is.

it's gross having your muscle at the shin suddenly dislocate itself in the night and make you scream out in your sleep. not wanting to disturb my mom from her sleep, i muffled my yelps of pain by gritting my teeth so hard. slowly i had to massage the affected muscle to loosen the tension and then twist it back. i was breaking out in cold sweat by then.

with the effects of my pills, i couldn't get myself back to my original state of body which was 'deep sleep'. LOL !! it's gonna be a working day, and i'll be going to a new outlet for the first time in my life whether as a salesperson or a consumer. luckily, my old buddy is there =) i look forward to catching up with her =)

P.S. it's my 2nd hundredth post =D

i've been thinking thru so much,
seeking so many insights.
there's so much i wanna say,
but not to just anyone oh hey.

i long for the day to come,
the day you'd bring me all that you've found.
i'll wanna share it with the only you,
not the other you, you, you and you.

the truth as ugly as it may sound,
brings us meanings worth more than billion pounds.
but will the heart value what's found?
it's all left up to the missing grace that we once found profound.

will you ever hear me out one day?
cause i long to speak the world with you.
treat my feelings with a gentle heart,
because someone had just pulled it all apart ........

once again, i wish every couple on earth a Happy Valentine's Day. not forgetting the singles, i wish them a smooth route to finding their happiness. in a more caricature meaning and tone, let us all wish world peace and prosperity xD it's gonna be Total Defence Day =D

enjoy your day guys !!! i'll be meeting my bitch later in the evening with her friends. Will said he wants to come along =x but i don't dare to 'bring' him along LOL !!! belle what do you say? message me when you see this =)



7:32 AM

No man means all he says, and yet very few say all they mean,
for words are slippery and thoughts are vicious.