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JOLYNN CHEW

A goddamn PERFECTIONIST
loves to be doted on like a PRINCESS
Looks for SINCERITY, SUPPORT, UNDERSTANDING in a person
she Is MATERIALISTIC
LOVES belle, and that's FOREVER.
EASY to talk to, but HARD to please.


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If your heart is in your dream, no request is too extreme. :)

SHE WANTS ........................

to be a little more successful
to be carefree
to receive flowers heehee !!
surprises and more surprises !!

ACHIEVED WISHES

a new laptop
chio laptop case
more nice clothes =D
a new phone DATED Nov 2009

UN-ACHIEVED ONES

laser treatment for my face
SNSD concert tickets
holidays to Thailand, HK, UK, US, Aussie and China?
go overseas with my love one DATED long ago
unlimited slimming sessions LOL DATED since young
BURBERRY wallet DATED Mar 2008
GUCCI LV bag DATED Aug 2009
a new phone DATED Nov 2009
CANON IXUS 130 in orange DATED Mar 2010
hotel stayovers DATED June 2010


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Sunday, April 26, 2009
@ 5:11 PM

i don't wanna give a hoot to anything anymore.
i don't wanna turn mad.
i don't wanna cry while waiting for your replies.
i don't wanna think that you don't want me anymore.



when you say something bad about me, i can't help but think that you don't love me anymore. i'm so scared that you'll think i'm no good. i feel insecure, i'm afraid one day you'll leave me for something better. i've already given my all, i don't know how to take it back. if you leave, everything about me would be gone. i don't like it when you don't bother about something that concerns me, cause it makes me think you don't love me. i want to feel that the only one you need is me. i wanna feel secure that you love me.

i'm so afraid when anything comes by, you will leave me. i'm so afraid if they ask you to, you will dump me. i'm so afraid if she comes back, you might not choose me. i'm so afraid you will push me away.

do you know all these? do you know that i can't afford to have nothing at all. because i'm already in your world, a place where i don't know where i am. if i'm gonna end up with nothing, i don't know how to walk out of it, cause it seems to strange to me. i don't know how i ended up here.



i really don't wanna think anymore. all these is driving me crazy. i wanna stop caring about you, i wanna learn the way outta your heart. i don't wanna get lost in it ever again. i'm doing this now, so that it'll never happen in the future. i need security, i need love, i need assurance. and i'm giving all these to myself, you don't wanna give any of it to me.


i wanna forget everything. god please help me .............



5:11 PM

No man means all he says, and yet very few say all they mean,
for words are slippery and thoughts are vicious.