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JOLYNN CHEW

A goddamn PERFECTIONIST
loves to be doted on like a PRINCESS
Looks for SINCERITY, SUPPORT, UNDERSTANDING in a person
she Is MATERIALISTIC
LOVES belle, and that's FOREVER.
EASY to talk to, but HARD to please.


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If your heart is in your dream, no request is too extreme. :)

SHE WANTS ........................

to be a little more successful
to be carefree
to receive flowers heehee !!
surprises and more surprises !!

ACHIEVED WISHES

a new laptop
chio laptop case
more nice clothes =D
a new phone DATED Nov 2009

UN-ACHIEVED ONES

laser treatment for my face
SNSD concert tickets
holidays to Thailand, HK, UK, US, Aussie and China?
go overseas with my love one DATED long ago
unlimited slimming sessions LOL DATED since young
BURBERRY wallet DATED Mar 2008
GUCCI LV bag DATED Aug 2009
a new phone DATED Nov 2009
CANON IXUS 130 in orange DATED Mar 2010
hotel stayovers DATED June 2010


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Monday, May 11, 2009
@ 10:38 PM

wow i've been like slacking my ass off !!! after lessons this morning, i went home and slept till now. finish my own manicure and updating some online stuff. 11hours gone like that !! i sure know how to waste time HAHA !!!

well can't be helped. haven't been sleeping well even though i was working 12hour shifts everyday for the weekend. for some mahjong that don't need me to play and for some prawns that made me feel lousy, they made me lose sleep like it's all so worth it. in his whole world, everybody's not lousy, except jolynn haha =) i wished he wasn't so selfish. but nvm, it's all over =)

it's been SO LONG since i had a good sleep, do manicure and many other things. have yet to buy my watch since it was spoiled 2months ago. i don't know why the sudden immense fatigue is like stopping me from going out LOL. gotta start with my assignments man.
but life feels so good now =P



this morning a very fateful incident shook me up from my "dreams". i bumped into a friend, not a very close one but one who keeps herself updated on me. so she learnt about what happened on sunday and she asked:

"then you're not worried he'll look you up halfway at work? wait at your house downstairs or school? and your mum's not around you know ...."

i said "he's not that kind of guy who would be so devoted to go such miles just to look for me luh ..... he'll just carry on his life as it is. it won't affect us that much =)"

and the awakening reply was "it's because he don't love you that enough la ...."


i wasn't offended, really .... because knowing her, she isn't the insensitive type. but why does all the exceptional behaviours surface at this time? is fate trying to tell me something?

today's monday, he'll be somewhere boat quay or whatever collecting his "pay" and with his friend happy houring. i'm not afraid of the near distance, or the nostalgia i've been feeling, because i know we've moved on. he'll be happy and i'll be too =)

although the promises he made will never be fulfilled, his friend's will never change their perspective of me, and i can't stop their comments because it's their mouth not mine, this time has come whereby nothing matters that much anymore. i'll be living in a world w/o him, and he'll be enjoying life w/o me.

it feels like i've awaken from a terrible nightmare, the feelings from it still lingers around me, but the sadness is all gone. shall take life in a more positive direction from now =)



might be attending ruddie's graduation this friday and have an initial D match or movie if there's time. so long since i'm out with my friends. will be looking forward to a better tomorrow =D



10:38 PM

No man means all he says, and yet very few say all they mean,
for words are slippery and thoughts are vicious.