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JOLYNN CHEW
A goddamn PERFECTIONIST
loves to be doted on like a PRINCESS
Looks for SINCERITY, SUPPORT, UNDERSTANDING in a person
she Is MATERIALISTIC
LOVES belle, and that's FOREVER.
EASY to talk to, but HARD to please.
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SHE WANTS ........................
to be a little more successful
to be carefree
to receive flowers heehee !!
 surprises and more surprises !!
ACHIEVED WISHES
 a new laptop
chio laptop case
more nice clothes =D
a new phone DATED Nov 2009
UN-ACHIEVED ONES
laser treatment for my face
SNSD concert tickets
holidays to Thailand, HK, UK, US, Aussie and China?
go overseas with my love one DATED long ago
unlimited slimming sessions LOL DATED since young
BURBERRY wallet DATED Mar 2008
GUCCI LV bag DATED Aug 2009
a new phone DATED Nov 2009
CANON IXUS 130 in orange DATED Mar 2010
hotel stayovers DATED June 2010
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 Tuesday, June 2, 2009  @ 5:44 PM NOTE: have unpublished some unhappy posts (unpublished not deleted). irks me to read them again. so if you don't have my password to blogger, you won't get irritate every again =D
HI GUYS !!! jolynn's back with some gibberish nonsense relationship stuffs again. yeah please skip it if you want. but the person who shouldn't read this the most is MY BOYFRIEND. you'll definitely be mad at me since you don't understand me =)
"almost any man can withstand adversities, but to know the true characteristics, give them power."i think i gave him too much power, i see too many true colours just within 2 short months. haha.
i've come to the stage where i practically heck care most of the things. NOPE, not that i don't feel sad or angry anymore, the point is, i can't be bothered to find any explanations for his actions anymore. there's never a good enough reason anyway =)
he is VERY VERY different from other boyfriends, a really different one.BFs like pris' will apologize when they feel the need to. even little things like frowning at her by accident, he wouldn't bear to hurt her with that. he'll say a little apology and assure her of his love. i can't figure out why i get frowns and stares like free gifts from a closing down sale.but in a more positive tone, he's just a little? self-centered. how long hasn't he remember what i like? almost two months since i ate sashimi, about 3-4months since i got a replacement for my spoilt watch, 2months since i said i wanted to go to the zoo with him and many many more ......
你很久没有在乎到我了。yes of course i still have happy times with him that i remember of. recently he's brought me to malaysia etc etc. deep inside i know he's just asking me along so i won't be too upset, but since the ending's happy, i close one eye. give and take what right. although the neoprint he doesn't even wanna keep but at least he take right? pathetic but it's true =)but just then i realize one thing, everytime, really EVERYTIME, whatever we do, is something of his own. my needs were NEVER met, the best he could do was to let me tag by his side when he does his stuffs. when i have something i need to do, he wouldn't be there by my side. he just doesn't see the importance being involved in my life. and no matter how i try to knock that point into his head, he just REFUSE to give it a try. refuse not don't know ok !! i really don't know why and i don't bother to try letting him know more about me already. yeah this kind of heck care.one day my mom asked me to go over my auntie's place for dinner, but i was at the west side. my auntie stays near him. so i replied "from jurong go there so far, might as well go find my bf like that." my mum ask me "boyfriend more important than family? does he treat you same? why always you acc him do things, never see him bring you to places you usually go. always hear you go find him go find him only."
my mum was fcuking pissed, not cause i neglect her, but because i'm bullying myself. that moment i asked myself "since WHEN did i start giving him so much?" i fell in love so unknowingly. everything's about him, but him? never about me.
with him ......... it's always about him. he "bring" me to malaysia for a "trip". but i haven't got my butter squid and blah blah ..... it's where he wants to go, what he wants to eat, and only what i want to eat AT THE SAME PLACE. i can only choose something to his convenience, can't he make an extra effort to make me feel appreciated for my heart towards him? i really wonder why ........ his friends can do it, but just not him. or is it because it's me and not others?IMAGINE ...................yr BF/GF is the person who knows you the best, and the best partner you wanna work with. you know he/she is important to you, and they need you to. the mutual confidence and faith in each other. WONDERFUL right. that's what i wished for, i always ask him to explain to me patiently or remind me nicely, as time goes by i'll get it w/o him saying. very ideal right? GF making effort sia ......BUT !!! then IMAGINE AGAIN ...................
people ask him about you, and he says he don't know. and yr friends ask you about him, and you don't know too. HOW WOULD YOU FEEL?how can this problem be solved? can anyone tell me?
when i'm very interested about all his things and i really wanna understand him, but he doesn't want to let me in closer to him.
i never seem to be the one who understands him more, i lose to all his friends.
then at the same time, you're trying to let him know more about you, ask him find out very difficult ma right.
but when you're telling him, he's not interested, ain't listening, no productive feedbacks.
just a sentence "orh, then what you want me to say?"
he isn't enthusiastic about the events in my life at all !!
can anyone tell me how to improve a couple's understanding and relationship like this? if one-sided effort can make it succeed, i'm more than willing to do two person's job. this relationship is treated very importantly to me, i really need help.
there is a hundred million problems between me and him, but he always chooses not to talk about it. i close one eye and act happy, he thinks it's solved, i no longer mind anymore. but i do, if you care, you know i do. when am i really happy, i also don't know.
everytime i feel very happy, i remind myself not to float too high cause you might throw me in hell anytime. you will revert back your mean self and hurt me all over again. it never comes from your heart, and i don't even dare to feel purely happy. i'm totally suffocated by this feeling of insecurity.but coming back to my heck care self, i won't find an answer why, i only wanna know WHAT to do. i don't care why things are so bad, i just wanna make it good for me. i still can smile, no worries, true smile or not, you judge for yourself.my brothers are going to plan a day to bring me out to zoo, sentosa and maybe malaysia too =D they always does this when my boyfriend or ex boyfriends neglects me. they told me "他不能给你你要的，我们给，你一定还有我们。" *melts* you know ..... the feeling i get upon hearing this. so relieved !!! like seeking comfort and shelter from the rain. makes me feel so much safer. even if the plan fails, i still feel much better knowing that there are people like my brothers and belle caring for me =) maybe one day they'll take the place of number 1 in my heart from him, but will he work to get it back? or will he just let my love go?
5:44 PM
No man means all he says, and yet very few say all they mean,
for words are slippery and thoughts are vicious.
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SHE .........
DON'T LIKE PEOPLE TO -.- HER !!
hates to be questioned
hates chicken brest meat
hates dark chocolate
hates grapes with seeds
hates raisins
hates onions, garlic, shallots, leeks, and anything in the same category
SHE ............
LOVES mutton, tulang merah, or lamb shank =)
loves instant jellyfish =)
loves TEOCHEW PORRIDGE downstairs my house
loves yong tau foo from the midnight stall downstairs
loves san lor hor fun from PP hwa hwa coffeeshop !!
loves red bean dumplings from Asian Kitchen !!
loves pasta from Shokudo
loves sweet water prawns from IKEA =)
loves van houtten almond chocolate
loves KFC =D
loves sentosa cove xD
loves sashimi
loves peanut mochi from the vegan store near aljunied station !!
loves ferrero rocher =D
loves zha jiang mian from CT
loves sweet potato leaves/stem =))
loves curry fish head
loves wanton mee at joo chiat place =D
loves macadamia nut ice-cream from andersons
good food lah !!
DINING RESTAURANT'S HALL OF FAME
1) Suki Sushi Buffet
2) Sushi tei
3) Ajisen
4) Fish & Co.
5) Soup Restaurant
6) Xin Wang HK Cafe
7) Red Star Dimsum
8) Park Royal Plaza Buffet
9) Jack's Place
10) Mr Bean Cafe
11) Marutama Ramen
12) Professor Brawn's Cafe
13) Asian Kitchen
14) Kiseki Japanese Buffet
15) Shokudo Japanese Restaurant
CHOCOLATE'S HALL OF FAME
TOP OF THE LIST: Belgian Chocolates (authentic ones please)
2) the chocolates shannen always buy me =)
3) FROZEN kinder bueno
4) Ferrero Rocher
5) Van Houtten Almond Milk Chocolate
MAGGIE MEE'S HALL OF FAME
TOP OF THE LIST: INDOMEE !!
2) Nissin Dry Noodles
3) Myojo Prawn Noodle Soup
4) Maggie Curry Noodles
5) Myojo Ramen Char Mee
6) Indofood Dry Noodles
CHIP'S HALL OF FAME
TOP OF THE LIST: SAPPORO VEG CHILLI STRIPS
2) Calbee Hot & Spicy
3) Calbee Black Pepper Prawn Crackers
4) Cartwheel Biscuits
5) Pringles Seaweed Flavour
6) Pringles Shrimp Flavour
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Tuesday, June 2, 2009 @ 5:44 PM NOTE: have unpublished some unhappy posts (unpublished not deleted). irks me to read them again. so if you don't have my password to blogger, you won't get irritate every again =D
HI GUYS !!! jolynn's back with some gibberish nonsense relationship stuffs again. yeah please skip it if you want. but the person who shouldn't read this the most is MY BOYFRIEND. you'll definitely be mad at me since you don't understand me =)
"almost any man can withstand adversities, but to know the true characteristics, give them power."i think i gave him too much power, i see too many true colours just within 2 short months. haha.
i've come to the stage where i practically heck care most of the things. NOPE, not that i don't feel sad or angry anymore, the point is, i can't be bothered to find any explanations for his actions anymore. there's never a good enough reason anyway =)
he is VERY VERY different from other boyfriends, a really different one.BFs like pris' will apologize when they feel the need to. even little things like frowning at her by accident, he wouldn't bear to hurt her with that. he'll say a little apology and assure her of his love. i can't figure out why i get frowns and stares like free gifts from a closing down sale.but in a more positive tone, he's just a little? self-centered. how long hasn't he remember what i like? almost two months since i ate sashimi, about 3-4months since i got a replacement for my spoilt watch, 2months since i said i wanted to go to the zoo with him and many many more ......
你很久没有在乎到我了。yes of course i still have happy times with him that i remember of. recently he's brought me to malaysia etc etc. deep inside i know he's just asking me along so i won't be too upset, but since the ending's happy, i close one eye. give and take what right. although the neoprint he doesn't even wanna keep but at least he take right? pathetic but it's true =)but just then i realize one thing, everytime, really EVERYTIME, whatever we do, is something of his own. my needs were NEVER met, the best he could do was to let me tag by his side when he does his stuffs. when i have something i need to do, he wouldn't be there by my side. he just doesn't see the importance being involved in my life. and no matter how i try to knock that point into his head, he just REFUSE to give it a try. refuse not don't know ok !! i really don't know why and i don't bother to try letting him know more about me already. yeah this kind of heck care.one day my mom asked me to go over my auntie's place for dinner, but i was at the west side. my auntie stays near him. so i replied "from jurong go there so far, might as well go find my bf like that." my mum ask me "boyfriend more important than family? does he treat you same? why always you acc him do things, never see him bring you to places you usually go. always hear you go find him go find him only."
my mum was fcuking pissed, not cause i neglect her, but because i'm bullying myself. that moment i asked myself "since WHEN did i start giving him so much?" i fell in love so unknowingly. everything's about him, but him? never about me.
with him ......... it's always about him. he "bring" me to malaysia for a "trip". but i haven't got my butter squid and blah blah ..... it's where he wants to go, what he wants to eat, and only what i want to eat AT THE SAME PLACE. i can only choose something to his convenience, can't he make an extra effort to make me feel appreciated for my heart towards him? i really wonder why ........ his friends can do it, but just not him. or is it because it's me and not others?IMAGINE ...................yr BF/GF is the person who knows you the best, and the best partner you wanna work with. you know he/she is important to you, and they need you to. the mutual confidence and faith in each other. WONDERFUL right. that's what i wished for, i always ask him to explain to me patiently or remind me nicely, as time goes by i'll get it w/o him saying. very ideal right? GF making effort sia ......BUT !!! then IMAGINE AGAIN ...................
people ask him about you, and he says he don't know. and yr friends ask you about him, and you don't know too. HOW WOULD YOU FEEL?how can this problem be solved? can anyone tell me?
when i'm very interested about all his things and i really wanna understand him, but he doesn't want to let me in closer to him.
i never seem to be the one who understands him more, i lose to all his friends.
then at the same time, you're trying to let him know more about you, ask him find out very difficult ma right.
but when you're telling him, he's not interested, ain't listening, no productive feedbacks.
just a sentence "orh, then what you want me to say?"
he isn't enthusiastic about the events in my life at all !!
can anyone tell me how to improve a couple's understanding and relationship like this? if one-sided effort can make it succeed, i'm more than willing to do two person's job. this relationship is treated very importantly to me, i really need help.
there is a hundred million problems between me and him, but he always chooses not to talk about it. i close one eye and act happy, he thinks it's solved, i no longer mind anymore. but i do, if you care, you know i do. when am i really happy, i also don't know.
everytime i feel very happy, i remind myself not to float too high cause you might throw me in hell anytime. you will revert back your mean self and hurt me all over again. it never comes from your heart, and i don't even dare to feel purely happy. i'm totally suffocated by this feeling of insecurity.but coming back to my heck care self, i won't find an answer why, i only wanna know WHAT to do. i don't care why things are so bad, i just wanna make it good for me. i still can smile, no worries, true smile or not, you judge for yourself.my brothers are going to plan a day to bring me out to zoo, sentosa and maybe malaysia too =D they always does this when my boyfriend or ex boyfriends neglects me. they told me "他不能给你你要的，我们给，你一定还有我们。" *melts* you know ..... the feeling i get upon hearing this. so relieved !!! like seeking comfort and shelter from the rain. makes me feel so much safer. even if the plan fails, i still feel much better knowing that there are people like my brothers and belle caring for me =) maybe one day they'll take the place of number 1 in my heart from him, but will he work to get it back? or will he just let my love go?
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