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JOLYNN CHEW

A goddamn PERFECTIONIST
loves to be doted on like a PRINCESS
Looks for SINCERITY, SUPPORT, UNDERSTANDING in a person
she Is MATERIALISTIC
LOVES belle, and that's FOREVER.
EASY to talk to, but HARD to please.


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If your heart is in your dream, no request is too extreme. :)

SHE WANTS ........................

to be a little more successful
to be carefree
to receive flowers heehee !!
surprises and more surprises !!

ACHIEVED WISHES

a new laptop
chio laptop case
more nice clothes =D
a new phone DATED Nov 2009

UN-ACHIEVED ONES

laser treatment for my face
SNSD concert tickets
holidays to Thailand, HK, UK, US, Aussie and China?
go overseas with my love one DATED long ago
unlimited slimming sessions LOL DATED since young
BURBERRY wallet DATED Mar 2008
GUCCI LV bag DATED Aug 2009
a new phone DATED Nov 2009
CANON IXUS 130 in orange DATED Mar 2010
hotel stayovers DATED June 2010


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Saturday, June 6, 2009
@ 10:31 PM

this post will be about mental notes to myself of this miserable life. not worth reading again. i think my blog value going down and down rapidly, just like my life.

to my funny, caring and cute friends, stop telling me to ditch my BF and find another guy can haha. got karma one hor xD finding someone you love is not like buying vegetables, no worm and fresh then buy. i love him that's why i'm trying to work things out, so try to believe me when i say i'm ok. i'm trying to believe i'm ok too =) thank you friends, you all are the best =)

i was all tired and sick, wishing you would ask me to stay and wait for you to send me back. that never came, but i didn't frown in front of you =)

when i reached home my mum reprimanded me. for being foolish, to give my all. i don't know why, i just couldn't really contain my pain anymore. i cried in my toilet w/o my mum knowing, i suddenly remember all the good times we had.


the very first day we fell in love. i accidentally hit your ear, i kept blowing it for you. you didn't scold or frown at me. i was coughing badly, you hugged me to sleep and pat my back whenever i have a bad cough. you brought me out at night for food when i'm hungry. you bring me to places where there's nice food.

you held my hand wherever i go, proudly telling everyone i'm your girlfriend. you were so eager to let me be part of your life, even just a simple window shop when you're bored, you will bring me along. wherever i wanna go, you would bring me there. you bring me to new places where i've never gone before, and protect me when i feel scared.

you never scolded me when i played a game badly. even if you were to tease me, you'll teach me patiently later. in the first week of our relationship, you entrusted me with a big sum of money which i took great care of. cause i want you to know that i'll be truthful to you, and i will love you. it felt so sweet then, these memories i'll never forget because they are what i live on now. now you just easily leave me alone. i'm not used to your world yet, not at all darling.


i'm dreaming, i'm just dreaming. today i passed by many familiar places, the only difference now is i'm without you and your heart beside me. i haven't done many things together with you for very long. love seems to have lost its meaning.


for the past few days, i stayed over cause you said you need to work for cash. i wanna cherish every minute i have with you, but you only needed your phone and laptop. you even asked me to bring my own laptop next time so that we no need to share. if you were to be at my house, i wouldn't mind not using my laptop cause you're here. that's so unfair =(

if we only had $5.00, i would give you $2.50, i won't ask you to find your own money. i wanna share everything with you, i don't want you to go empty-handed. if i were to use my $2.50 to earn more money, i'll teach you how also, cause when i'm good, i want you to enjoy with me. i don't want to see you lagging behind. but now, i think i'm miles behind you, come back and pick me up, will you?


other than prawning and whatever thing, is there anything we can do together? like watch a movie, talk about our backgrounds and pasts, or current events. maybe cook together or dance with slow music?


after monday, i won't have as much time to fork out for you already. i hope you really did cherish the efforts i made for you. i know i'm very poor now, i can't really get anything nice for you, but i already start preparing for your birthday already. yes this is how much i'm willing to do for you. i don't need you to buy me things i say i want, i prefer you specially choosing a simple gift for me. i need your thought not your money.

all i want is just your heart for me. i don't want anything else. because your heart with me, gives us the strength to do many things, it gives me pride, and confidence that we'll overcome everything. if you have my heart, doing these simple things won't seem difficult for you. if you find it really so hard, maybe you just have never really loved me.




i will be smiling, always smiling. but just pretending ....................
everytime i wake up and seem like i forgot everything, do you take it as i'm ok?

这样装下去,问题真的能解决吗?
我希望有一天,你会知道我是最爱你的人,
转过来,把我的眼泪,擦掉,再变成笑容。
我好久没有真正的笑了。。。



10:31 PM

No man means all he says, and yet very few say all they mean,
for words are slippery and thoughts are vicious.