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JOLYNN CHEW

A goddamn PERFECTIONIST
loves to be doted on like a PRINCESS
Looks for SINCERITY, SUPPORT, UNDERSTANDING in a person
she Is MATERIALISTIC
LOVES belle, and that's FOREVER.
EASY to talk to, but HARD to please.


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If your heart is in your dream, no request is too extreme. :)

SHE WANTS ........................

to be a little more successful
to be carefree
to receive flowers heehee !!
surprises and more surprises !!

ACHIEVED WISHES

a new laptop
chio laptop case
more nice clothes =D
a new phone DATED Nov 2009

UN-ACHIEVED ONES

laser treatment for my face
SNSD concert tickets
holidays to Thailand, HK, UK, US, Aussie and China?
go overseas with my love one DATED long ago
unlimited slimming sessions LOL DATED since young
BURBERRY wallet DATED Mar 2008
GUCCI LV bag DATED Aug 2009
a new phone DATED Nov 2009
CANON IXUS 130 in orange DATED Mar 2010
hotel stayovers DATED June 2010


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Sunday, July 12, 2009
@ 8:43 PM

i don't know what happened but i miss you badly now. i'm on the verge of crying my eyeballs out but i always tell myself not to be rash in my thinking. i wanna learn, i wanna grow up and i wanna be strong. that's why i always act like it's so easy to handle.

but please know me, i'm actually very weak inside. the time i need the most care, is the time you feel i least deserve it.


where are you my dear. where are our happy times. i haven't heard your voice for a week and i miss you terribly.





i went for the mahjong competition to support belle's parents this morning. together with belle and zhi hui, her boyfriend. tons of pictures, unlike previous posts.

they seem to be walking the journey of me and ben but i seriously do not wish to see my friend in the same state. i wanna protect her but i know all i can do is to tell her to take it easy, cause if i can't change things between me and my BF, how can i do it to others, and it's not rightful anyway.

but i'm a little glad that zhi hui slightly different. and i asked myself, would i be happier if i had someone like that? my answer is no. because it's not my ben. i think i fall serious this time, my world especially. but unfortunately for me, my BF probably doesn't feel the same way about me. maybe i'm not good enough or what, that's why the harder i try the more he doesn't wanna accept it.

if i could go back to the 17th of march, when i can say i don't need him at all, perhaps i would have been more firm and not start this relationship that is so out of place. but then again, it's an "IF".

sorry, i subconciously typed so much about him. yes i'm kinda unstable now i think.

we met belle's parents at the lounge first to have lunch, yummy food, i ate alot. recently i do eat alot and i really mean ALOT. cam-whoring session and some random moments.


looking relaxed? no actually at the back of my mind are lesson plans =.=


staring hard.



forever camera shy, yet wanna take other's photos LOL !! oops.


obscenity in the country club.



he's shag-ed xD




are you having cramps?


the difference in the size of their feet. and my feet is much smaller than belle's can !!



if mine is there then will be like this? LOL !!


random photo she took of me and she say "nice".



so i turned around and give a NICER face haha.




suddenly i walked back (was intending to leave the lounge), and said "EH STOP THERE !! this pose nice. STOP AR !!"



TAKE 1



TAKE 2



TAKE 3 (a little pissed already)


TAKE 4 (totally uninterested)

mind you, usually it's very hard to even get a photo of him and today he willingly took so many. i'm surprised can. this is less than half of what i have in my folders.


competition started and we went in. for the first round, belle's mum was unlucky to have a very uncooperative player on the table. and i totally get the meaning of my BF say by anyhow feeding people will spoil cards. she almost every round feed the uncle about 2-3 times leh !!! make him win damn fast.



THERE her head is in that circle. later i crop away she become beheaded xD don't know how to play come join competition spoil market. i know you lose no need pay money but also don't stop people from winning prize ma.



isabelle's mummy, looking very happy =)



went to the jackpot room for the first time in my life. this game is puzzling and i don't like it.


shouting to belle about the winnings and got this shot =.= i still lose 20bucks in the end anyway haha.


in the arcade challenging zhi hui to daytona. he keep saying i might not win might not win. second round still change machine with me. HAH !! so let you guess what was the final result. no prizes please !!

we went to a cafe near the pool to chill. bought ice-cream and i fell asleep there. seriously lor, match not worth watching and we really had nothing to do haha.


some triple chocolate thingy and my brownie ice cream below.



this is cookies and cream plus tiramisu.

we went back to the jackpot room with belle's parents after the competition and played with this massage chair. i tried it too but i'm not posting any of my photos as it doesn't look too glam.





HE LOOKS LIKE HE'S HAVING AN ORGASM LMAO !!
oops =x



the happy long lasting couple =) belle's mum is super cute and her father's humourous =)


below 3 photos are being taken by belle, and apparently zhi hui had no choice but to be the model. wakakaka.








this shot was sort of "requested" by her dad as he turned around and posed haha. cute right.



belle says this photo of me is nice. in what way may i ask?


went back home to take some stuffs, bought food for everyone and headed to belle's house. stayover =) zhi hui had giddy spells along the way, me too but i guess i'm very used to having no one to care. i'm sad that i remember the times when i was very sick and my BF didn't care. i was desperately wishing he will drag me to the doctor's. act of concern ma. but he only used one harsh sentence to express it, making it even hard for people to say yes. why can't my BF be more understanding hur?

actually through the whole day i was rather emo, like a broken soul. when both of them lovey-dovey, i feel nostalgic. but when they're not on good terms, i feel sorry about it cause it's exactly what i'm facing now.

but jolynn had promised not to impose her unhappiness on people around them.
so no crying =D


i realized that no matter how bad i say you to be, i just love you more with each word i speak.
i'm just loving you too much and i hope the love has not frozen itself.
i want your heart to come back one day, back to the times when we were so happy.
i want feel that you care so much for me.
when i told everybody how good you treated me, and how lucky am i to have found someone like this.
i wanna be proud of you, and i wanna go back to then.



8:43 PM

No man means all he says, and yet very few say all they mean,
for words are slippery and thoughts are vicious.