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JOLYNN CHEW

A goddamn PERFECTIONIST
loves to be doted on like a PRINCESS
Looks for SINCERITY, SUPPORT, UNDERSTANDING in a person
she Is MATERIALISTIC
LOVES belle, and that's FOREVER.
EASY to talk to, but HARD to please.


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If your heart is in your dream, no request is too extreme. :)

SHE WANTS ........................

to be a little more successful
to be carefree
to receive flowers heehee !!
surprises and more surprises !!

ACHIEVED WISHES

a new laptop
chio laptop case
more nice clothes =D
a new phone DATED Nov 2009

UN-ACHIEVED ONES

laser treatment for my face
SNSD concert tickets
holidays to Thailand, HK, UK, US, Aussie and China?
go overseas with my love one DATED long ago
unlimited slimming sessions LOL DATED since young
BURBERRY wallet DATED Mar 2008
GUCCI LV bag DATED Aug 2009
a new phone DATED Nov 2009
CANON IXUS 130 in orange DATED Mar 2010
hotel stayovers DATED June 2010


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Saturday, April 24, 2010
@ 11:54 PM

in the past, people always pass me off as just another crazy girl, ah lian, flirt, or whatever they want to name me. yes indeed, i don't deny that i portrayed myself in bad light last time, but it's all on the outside.

and then in the past few years, people see me as insincere, bo chup, or whatever else again. but now, i'm making a change. i don't know why but i seem to enjoy making efforts to help people. help my friends woo their girlfriends, etc etc.

i try my best to plan birthdays for my friends, which in the past, i won't bother to turn up or even buy a gift. yeah so mean right.

what i'm really trying is to see things v positive, so i'll try not to doubt. try to be v nice, but a path to grave is a path of good intentions.


in the past, nobody dared to say bad things in front of me, they do it behind my back probably because i'm too fierce? but once they realize i stop "firing" people, they start to spill things like in my face. i really wonder, are my changes doing good or bad?

i heard from a friend that some of my used-to-be close friends are passing comments about my character based on things that happened in the past. and i feel so disappointed and discouraged that being my friends, the approach they use to judge me is just by my past. and they assumed my actions based on past events. really sad.


of course i thank whoever in the present like belle, gene, lance and other people who actually bother to see beyond the rumours and get to know who i really am. i'm still great friends with them, and maybe these are the people who appreciated my changes, and make them worthwhile.

no i won't be discouraged just because of this incident, but i will change for the better. cause apparently those who bother, will see it.

1) stop smoking (75% accomplished)
2) minimal drinking (capped)
3) short fuse (trying very hard)
4) think before rash words (yes in 60% process)
5) negativism ( 30% solved only =[)
6) less violent more ladylike (long way to go, still trying)



i'm no longer who i was, but i'm still human. don't judge me anymore.



11:54 PM

No man means all he says, and yet very few say all they mean,
for words are slippery and thoughts are vicious.