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JOLYNN CHEW

A goddamn PERFECTIONIST
loves to be doted on like a PRINCESS
Looks for SINCERITY, SUPPORT, UNDERSTANDING in a person
she Is MATERIALISTIC
LOVES belle, and that's FOREVER.
EASY to talk to, but HARD to please.


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If your heart is in your dream, no request is too extreme. :)

SHE WANTS ........................

to be a little more successful
to be carefree
to receive flowers heehee !!
surprises and more surprises !!

ACHIEVED WISHES

a new laptop
chio laptop case
more nice clothes =D
a new phone DATED Nov 2009

UN-ACHIEVED ONES

laser treatment for my face
SNSD concert tickets
holidays to Thailand, HK, UK, US, Aussie and China?
go overseas with my love one DATED long ago
unlimited slimming sessions LOL DATED since young
BURBERRY wallet DATED Mar 2008
GUCCI LV bag DATED Aug 2009
a new phone DATED Nov 2009
CANON IXUS 130 in orange DATED Mar 2010
hotel stayovers DATED June 2010


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Monday, May 3, 2010
@ 12:37 AM

days haven't been good, so i'm back to emo one corner again.

i guess he doesn't ever read this since i-don't-know when. i think someone better than me has captured his heart already. but it's also partly my fault luh.

i really miss him.
i miss waking up with his "yo! good mornin, lol." messages to me.
i miss him saying he misses me too.
i miss him fighting with me for hugs.
i miss him making fun of me.
i miss lying on his shoulder between the campaigns of L4D2.
i miss talking to him non-stop.
i miss him not looking bored when he's with me.

now i think all belongs to her. or if i'm thinking too much, then maybe i really bore him, no need for a girl. and that's equally bad.

i know that the outburst that happened some time ago was really a shouldn't-be thing, as it should have placed a lot of pressure on him cause i was being apprehensive and stuffs. and i totally know now that we're definitely impossible cause i think he doesn't have feelings for me anymore.

but i don't know why i wish so much to just go back to our chinatown date, for just once. i guess that was our happiest moments. i just wanna treasure that feeling that i accidentally breezed through.

i don't know is it because of my overwhelming reaction, or whatever reasons i have in my mind (can't state it out here), or is it just time.

whatever it is, i feel stupid to say that i didn't realize it until today gene told me "can see that you really like him." i used to tell myself ....

1) nvm luh, can find another guy, will be better cause no awkwardness (caused by the outbursts)
2) nvm luh, stay single lor, he can't forget someone anyway.
3) nvm luh, maybe it's just a crush.
4) nvm luh, sad jiu sad lor.


i just didn't know it will be this bad.



i think i really like YOU*
and you just will never know how much.
cause from now on, it's just kept in my heart =)



12:37 AM

No man means all he says, and yet very few say all they mean,
for words are slippery and thoughts are vicious.