pinch of salt

If only .....

2011-11-24T22:20:00.001+08:00

Sometimes even if it's just a simple journey home, you get all reluctant to part ways. It's like if only everyone lived in the same place ..... If only ..... And there'll be no goodbyes.

SO NYUH SHI DAE!

2011-10-11T22:04:00.002+08:00

i never knew hardcore i could feel as a fan, until i heard the great news (release of SNSD concert dates), and read the sharing from various fans from kpop night.

i could actually feel myself being there, the thrill, excitement, and inexplicable happiness. i actually cried trying to imagine myself doing the fan chant. below is just to share with all fans. i might not sound as happy as i claim to be, but i think i'm still in a dream.

SNSD'S COMING ~!!!

Back from the daebak concert! Everyone was great but of cos our girls were the best!!!

The pink ocean was REALLY nice even from a sone point of view. I don’t know if anyone mentioned this. But even before the concert started, the group of sones in the standing pit that were wearing pink waved their pink sabers and light sticks up and screamed and after that the whole concert hall that WERE ALSO holding the pink light sticks and wadever that is pink in colour all raised their items too. THAT for me was a nice SONE moment, seeing all sones coming together although we were NOT seated together.

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This is the first time the girls are coming here as I went down to the concertarea 2 hours before. I can already smell the excitement in the air upon arriving as many people clad in pink outfits can be seen almost everywhere. I was jealous as I didn’t manage to get one of the pink light sabers.

I went into the concert area shortly and I was seating at the category 1 seats.Just before the concert starts, the standing crowd caught my eyes as there were a section filled with pink light sabers and they were flashing their light all at once. This action made the crowd go wild as I can see pink light sticks/light sabers popping out from random areas in the hall, showing them that we are the strongest fan clubs there!

The concert finally started at 8pm sharp as the opening was done by F.T Island.The Boss, Infinite and ZE:A performed after that and it was down to 3 groups left – SHINee, SNSD and Big Bang. The MCs teased us with the upcoming groups and when SHINee was revealed, the crowd went wild with the high pitched screams from the Shawols fan girls. They performed Replay, Hello, Ring Ding Dong andLucifer and the crowd really got hyped up as people are screaming all over.

We were guessing who’s the next group to perform is and it was our girl’s turn! The background music for Tell Me Your Wish dropped and the husky voice of our kid leader started the song. The girls are wearing their Japanese promotion outfits for genie and that is the outfit that I liked the most! To be honest I was quite worried about now having any fan chants for the girls as there were not much fan chants even for SHINee but sones proved the crowd wrong. The first chant *MAREBWA!* was so loud and clear and I was shouting my lungs out for the girls. Overwhelmed by the chants, sones just got louder and louder as I couldn’t believe that they are actually performing live in front of my eyes. Fany then put Singapore backed on as we loved the fan service that she is giving us.

The girls never gave the crowd any time to rest as the Oh!-so-catchy tune hit us like the tsunami waves. It was Oh! That they are performing next!! I could hear people around us saying”wow the chants for SNSD are so loud…” That made me felt so proud as a sone as the unified chanting made me closer and felt like sones are like one big family. I had goose bumps all over while chanting ”Jigemun So Nyuh ShiDae, Apurodo So Nyuh Shi Dae, Youngwhoni So Nyuh Shi Dae, So Nyuh Shi Dae Saranghae Oh!”

They went on to introduce themselves as Fany was being so cute, saying that they felt happy that all of us are present and happy that they are promoting Kpop to us. She then teased us by saying that they are going to have a comeback soon and the crowd was like shouting “Hoot! Hoot! Hoot! Hoot!”

Run Devil Run was next and I felt a little awkward seeing them perform thatsong with the sailor outfits but nonetheless the girls did their live perfectly and Taeng hit the high notes well too.

We were all anticipating for the next song. The song that made me fell in love with them, the song that make them Korea’s top girl group, the song that everyone was confident that they can sing out loud. It was Gee!! “ListenSingapore, My first love story~” the whole crowd went crazy as gee gee gee gee could be heard from everyone. Then the best moment of my life came. They went to the T-shaped stage and Taeyeon was at the intersection. I was like screaming“TAEYEON COME HERE!!” and she miraculously took a right turn. TAEYEON IS JUST IN FRONT OF ME SINGING GEE! OH MY GOD I swear I could have hyperventilated and died on the spot. She was like 10m away from me and all I can see is her petite body and she short hair just glows under the concert lights. 1080 HD videos really don’t do justice to Taeng as each and every of her motion could make me faint~~ There was a few Taeny moments too as Fany showed a V-sign on top of Taeng’s head, talk about love from this couple

From this close distance, Yuri really caught me off guard as I thought she was hot before. But NO, SHE IS SUPER MEGA FREAKING HOT!! Her S-line is really something to beware of. Sooyoung’s pair of slim legs are like the best in the industry as every member looked so slim in real life. It’s a pity the duration of the song is too short for me to have a clear look at all 9 members as they headed back to the main stage.

Sica complimented Singapore too saying that Singapore’s really clean and theywould like to come here to perform again!! Sooyoung also spoke some engrish andit was really cute of her. How I wished Taeng could do some of her engrish too!

Big Bang performed a whopping 7 songs after that and their stage charisma and fan service they gave really showed me that they are the sunbaenim after all. They performed classics like Haru Haru, Lies and Last Farewell and soon it was the last farewell for us as they performed their last song of the night.

Everyone appeared after that as we sang We Are the World together. Sooyoung was like sending out mini hearts to everyone and Kim Choding was like smiling to every camera. Flying kisses were sent by our girls to everyone as the night finally ended.

The image of the girls is still vivid in my mind now as I realize why they are called the top girl group in Korea. Seeing them perform real life is something every sone should accomplish and I am proud to say that I have done that tonight!

the female demerit point system

2011-10-07T00:15:00.001+08:00

i know i know, this is the most loser way of reviving a blog, copying. but it's great content that's shared :) just read ok lol. it's from my lao jie's web btw.

The Female Demerit Point System

In the world of romance, one single rule applies: Make the woman happy.
Do something she likes and you get points. Do something she dislikes and
points are subtracted.

You don’t get any points for doing something she expects. Sorry, that’s the
way the game is played.

Here is a guide to the point system:

SIMPLE DUTIES

You make the bed (+1)
You make the bed, but forget the decorative pillow (0) You throw the
bedspread over rumpled sheets (-1) You go out to buy her what she wants (+5)
in the rain (+8) But return with Beer (-5) You check out a suspicious noise
at night (+1) You check out a suspicious noise, and it is nothing (0) You
check out a suspicious noise and it is something (+5) You pummel it with
iron rod (+10) It’s her pet (-20)

SOCIAL ENGAGEMENTS

You stay by her side the entire party (0) You stay by her side for a while,
then leave to chat with an old school friend (-2) Named Tina (-10) Tina is a
dancer (-20) Tina has silicone implants (-80)

HER BIRTHDAY

You take her out to dinner (+2)
You take her out to dinner and it’s not a sports bar (+3) Okay, it’s a
sports bar (-2) And it’s all-you-can-eat night (-3) It’s a sports bar, it’s
all-you-can-eat night, and your face is painted the colors of your favorite
team (-10)

A NIGHT OUT

You take her to a movie (+1)
You take her to a movie she likes (+3)
You take her to a movie you hate (+6)
You take her to a movie you like (-2)
It’s called ‘Death Cop’ (-3)
You lied and said it was a foreign film about orphans (-15)

YOUR PHYSIQUE

You develop a noticeable potbelly (-15)
You develop a noticeable potbelly and exercise to get rid of it (+10) You
develop a noticeable potbelly and resort to baggy jeans and baggy Hawaiian
shirts (-30) You say, “It doesn’t matter, you have one too.” (-8000)

THE BIG QUESTION

She asks, “Do I look fat?” (-5) (Yes, you lose points no matter what) You
hesitate in responding (-10) You reply, “Where?” (-35) Any other response
(-20)

COMMUNICATION

When she wants to talk about a problem, you listen, displaying what looks
like a concerned expression (0) You listen, for over 30 minutes (+50) You
listen for more than 30 minutes without looking at the TV (+500) She
realizes this is because you have fallen asleep (-4000).

scorpio stuffs

2011-09-27T21:37:00.001+08:00

Scorpio

Best Relationship Matches

Cancer Both of you have deep emotional wells underneath that hard surface, and are both water signs.

Virgo You admire each other’s work ethic, and the negative traits of both cancel each other out.

Pisces Although the attraction is immediate, it doesn’t last long the Piscean will become too possessive for you.

Worst Relationship Matches

Aries You must avoid the other Mars sign you’ll constantly fight over control of everything.

Gemini You’ll get jealous of their freedom.

Sagittarius Too flighty and untrustworthy this match is liable to bring out your darkest qualities.

One of the most rewarding and yet dangerous lovers to become involved with in the intense power the Scorpion Planetary alignment. Even though Pluto is a relatively new planet, its effects on Scorpio’s has always been there, quietly driving and defining their characteristics. There is debate around which of Scorpio’s planets has primacy, mars or Pluto, but the reality is that both the fire of mars and secret intensity of Pluto has great bearing on the interaction and personalities of your Scorpio lover.

One of the most obvious aspects of this tension is the way that Scorpios affect other people around them. If you haven’t noticed it yet, pay close attention to how others act around your Scorpio. He/she is the one at the bar with their arm around a complete stranger sharing a drink and talking of life, but at the same time they are evaluating and manipulating, drawing people into their inner circle quickly and efficiently. The opposite sex is always overly fond of your Scorpio and people in their life seem adopt their mannerisms and turns of phrase, without even really noticing it.

But here is key, the blending of intense social interactivity and secret internal intellect create a volcano-like rumbling, threatening to blow and destroy everything around them, and that unfortunately can include lovers and friends. It is important to stand back a bit when your Scorpio is in full tilt, because getting in his/her way can often lead to catastrophe. And don’t for one minute think that if your partner fails in their endeavor that they will be satisfied and give up, on the contrary the Pluto in their sign allows for a depth of understanding that will get back in the belly of the beast and retool whatever needs to be fixed and get back on course.

In spite of what seems a recipe for complete personality disaster when your Scorpio’s life is balanced with love and friendship the intense power and passion that are at their disposal can bring great happiness to everyone around them. This is the state that a good lover can bring to their Scorpio. It is in many ways the reason that throughout history Scorpio men are so associated with desirability. A lot of women out there, you all know who I am talking about, want to fix men in their lives, and strangely enough Scorpio men are one of the only sun signs that not only allow but also tend encourage this paradigm of help and helper.

But don’t betray them. Of all the signs they are the most vindictive, and they will wait patiently to exact their revenge. This is why it is so important to make sure that you are the right mate for a Scorpio, since even if they perceive a slight or a betrayal of trust they can fly off the handle, dropping into a deep state of depression, making everyone around them miserable. Cultivate a sense of trust and calmness in your Scorpio and the dividends will pay off huge.

spring cleaning.

2011-08-19T22:21:00.004+08:00

just here to do spring cleaning for this blog. left untouched for too long.

most people who'd probably read this would know that i'm working with children right now. probably the most satisfying job i ever held (not in monetary terms). life has been a pretty beautiful routine everyday. each day spent fulfilling and meaningfully. experience varied kinds of joy and happiness, sadness and anger.

happiness being from the children, when i'm able to help them learn and cope, and joy with all my lovely colleagues. anger and sadness which i won't elaborate. i enjoy my work, so much that it has become something that takes my mind off all the unhappy stuffs. now that i've reached a cross road, to either stop doing what i love for a moment, and take my studies, or do them both at the same time, for a much prolonged period of time. not a big issue.

i'm not in a very good emotional state now, i keep getting this very heartbroken feeling now and then. i think i'm too sensitive, but i choose to believe it's true, just in case things really come true, if you get what i mean.

anyway just some nice stuffs i found online. scroll down =)

i think any human who can say this and mean it 100%, of course carry it out, will give the best form of happiness to people around them.

"I vow to always keep my love, as pure as it is today.

In your laughter, and your tears, in your sickness, and your health.

In your comfort, and your fears, in your poverty and your wealth.

I promise to be true to you, I promise to cherish you.

I give this ring, as a token, I now marry you."

for this one, could i just say, it speaks my heart and soul?

不喊痛，不一定没感觉。
不要求，不一定没期待。
不落泪，不一定没伤痕。
不说话，不一定没心声。

沉默，不代表自己没话说。
离开，不代表自己很潇洒。
快乐，不代表自己没伤心。
幸福，不代表自己没痛过。

Money world.

2011-07-02T21:23:00.006+08:00

hohoho my birthday wishlist for the 21st. what has it gotta do with the title? obviously money LOL. which is the reason why i haven't got them myself zzzz.

this list can be like a *hint hint* though it scares people off, but aiya, just don't take me seriously ok hahaha.

1) an DSLR lens

2) DSLR body kit (i can buy it from lao jie though so the 1st one pls =D)

3) branded? =/ never have owned one, never really wanted one, so .... should i indulge? hahaha.

BURBERRY, omg naizeeee.

LV?

GUCCI, mature sexy.

COACH, small nice and stylish.

or should i start supporting PAP, kate spade kate spake !! hahaha.

4) holiday sponsor (not malaysia please !!)

5) ang pows big big one =) not outside, inside ok haha.

6) vouchers vouchers? =) capital land or something haha.

7) give me capital to start business LOL !! omg. just kidding ok.

8) or maybe you can pay for the downpayment of the new house that my mum might buy in months to come? =x=x=x

ok getting absurd i know. but everything is like so associated with $$$$. what a sickening world to live in.

if i can like create a world/country of my own. i'll substitute money with work done. just imagine, how meaningful it'll be if you spot something you like in a shop, and you do some work for the company to exchange for the item.

and maybe your special one wanna buy you a gift, then he/she works hard for a period of time to exchange that gift, i think quite touching lor hahaha.

now everything also money. especially the closure of TJP railway station. so many years of history, close just for bilateral relations with malaysia which this contract doesn't help much. and also because the land under the station is super valuable.

money money money, everyone think of money. when our friends ask us out, money will be the top 3 issues other than activities and venue. people everyday work for what, money. although it's gradual but i really think money has too big an impact on humans.

government always say affordable housing, but keep building private flats and condos, majiam become real estate developer =.= raise income ceiling so that people who buy flats can afford to pay you, those cannot sleep on the streets uh? money and profits again. is there a single policy that they don't profit from, if so, is the ratio reasonable? like not 1:1000000, meaning they lose a dollar out of the 1 million they make.

seriously, if money was taken out of topic, i think the set of problems wouldn't be caused by human greed and selfish-ness. i mean, so much money for what? bring into the coffin? why make people suffer cause of money?

so ......... this year's birthday, i just want something that is meaningful and sincere. unless there's nothing you can think of, then maybe the list above that concerns money can come in. i know i thick skin, later people say "who say want to give you anything?" but oh well ......... i no care =D it's MY birthday wahahaha. just bring me to the shop and choose ok HAHAHA !! skin too thick, never shed abit, will develop calluses la hahaha.

i don't know why i decided to do this post, but i'm just trying to do something other than work. i don't wanna be in the vicious cycle.

"Struggle" is the word.

2011-06-05T20:10:00.005+08:00

have been into deep thought the whole of yesterday night, and today. and one word to describe life to me would be "Struggle". i've found it hard to believe things like just don't think about things and it will be fine tomorrow, because ultimately when it finds its way back in your mind years down the road, i don't think that it's a better feeling to know you've let it pass you without thought. okay don't get me wrong, i'm not trying to change anyone, or lives, but it's purely my own perspective i'm penning down here. if it has to influence anyone, i hope it's positive. =)

so why struggle? let's just talk about something that most people can relate to, parents. we can't choose our parents but i believe many of us out there have difficulty feeling happy and satisfied with them all the time. at the same time, we know about Filial Piety, Respect, Understanding, etc. and it's fascinating how many people chose their own happiness and satisfaction over the basic virtues. i'm no exception.

because we are unhappy, and our parents feel it, they've made changes. while we, will sit there and continue thinking what changes we hope to see in them. seeing through others is always easy, too easy. but why get so busy looking into others, when we can't even see ourselves. we're the ones who've not changed, and we do not realize that. even if we did, it's that instant pang of guilt out of nowhere, did we really do much about it? where's our actions?

i've not gather courage to apologize sincerely face-to-face to my mum for all the hurtful things i've ever said and done since the day i was here by her side. i've done too much to hurt, but none to heal. i used to conveniently tell myself, it's ok she will understand. but somehow, inside me i know it's not enough. i say she will understand, everything is i say, who told me it's right? it's me, myself. is it really right? i think those reading this will all know, it's a no. it's called taking for granted.

my source of thoughts came by when i was listening to Ching Fei's speech on Effective Listening during volunteer training, and watching the movie Easy A, this afternoon. in his speech there was the Cup analogy, and 4mindset thing, i hope i get them right since this is by memory.

Cup Analogy

there are 3 kinds of half-filled cups. please leave science out of this to make logic out of it.

1) overturned half-filled cup.

when the cup is overturned, the base facing up, no more water can go in. if we see water as information, it means that we do not let new information go in. although it's only half-filled, we think we already know everything, and we do not need to know more.

2) the contaminated/toppled cup.

in this cup, there's water, but filled with pollution, bacteria, contamination etc etc. so even when clean water in poured in, it gets dirty right? so i believe every being out there already have own sets of thinkings built from our life experiences. we have all kinds of preconceived notions towards issues and people, so much that when people share first hand experience regarding the same issue, we at times refuse to detach ourselves from our judgements.

as for toppled cup, it's a direct inference as "one ear in one ear out". whatever amount of water poured, gets poured out, due to various reasons. judgements, prejudcies, preconceived notions, disinterest. whatever it is.

3) the upright half-filled cup.

it's there on the table, waiting and ready for new information. possess space and area for thinking and analyzing.

and the 4kinds of mindset that is beneficial for effective listening that we should have, but we usually do not possess. then again, it's based on my memory of the talk, so it might not be 100% accurate.

1) there's something i don't know.
2) i really want to know something.
3) this person can help me to understand more.
4) i want to follow the instructions given by this person to find out more.

one clarification to make, these 4mindsets need not refer to the same person, it can happen at different venues, timing, and occassions.

how often do we really think we don't know something? we might say we don't know, but we always have something to say about it. and when we don't know, when do we really want to know? by saying we really want to learn about it, it's hard enough for some people, just like me. therefore, it makes taking the right attitude to learn a step higher/tougher if we do not listen.

i think in order to hit point 3 and point 4, the main attribute is with no doubt, humbleness. in the event of someone having a different perspective from you, yet you know he/she could be jolly well right about the thing more than you are. how do you overcome your pride to tell yourself yes i got it wrong and i need to learn from that person.

most of the time, we spend our minutes defending and deluding oursleves in heart that we're still right. when are we ready to accept what seems like a loss of ego to us? only when we really need help from that person, or when there're no other alternatives, right? is it too late? or could it have been prevented if we put our ego down and listened right from the start?

i would say being humble might seem putting yourself at a loss in that instant moment, but i think it's us that benefit at the end point. i might be able to type these 2paragraphs at ease, but i have to be ashamed that i haven't really be able to apply it towards people around me. sometimes when you meet people who are definitely doing things not correct, and i think it is the most critical position and time to display humbleness, because in times like this, it's the best time for pride to over-develop. how do we go about noticing good in people when we already think we're good enough?

a super common scenario, bickering with friends about directions and addresses of destinations. sometimes we might have been to that area just recently, it has moved or ways of accessing that location have changed. some may be informed, some may not have been. and so we BET, like over a drink or something for getting the right answer. so in that fervent mood we find out the answer, and when we lose, we got that suck thumb feeling you know, and tell ourselves, it's ok, we 愿赌福输. but what was our initial attitude? we really 愿赌福输 or just comforting ourselves?

haven't we thought if we adopted a different attitude on learning and listening, we needn't face the awkward situation. since it's a different opinion, why don't we explore both, and thank the one who had the right one instead of penalizing the one with the incorrect one? observing merits, not faults.

yeah we can say "aiya relax, it's for the fun of it." on the surface, yes.

many things we do, is because society do. because most people do, then it becomes CORRECT, or NOTHING WRONG to just go with the crowd. so saying "hello" to strangers every morning becomes a "wrong" or "weird" thing to do. so since there's been alot of murder cases, and one day it becomes a norm, do the rules have to change and make it correct? do we happen to lack thinking skills at times? where did we hide the ability to differentiate real right, from perceived right?

it's common to scold vulgarities, or sleep around in certain continents of the world, and this area is expanding as globalization kicks in. they might say move with times. but how long can you be "correct" for? it's only this lifetime. i would call this stage "delusion", and on the other side "enlightenment".

for christians, they don't believe in afterlife, but they do have judgement day. are you seriously going to spend say 75years of life deluding yourselves with society problems, and then regret on judgement day which will last eternally? God can forgive you, but how easily are you going to forgive YOURSELVES?

for buddhists, they believe in afterlife. yes alot of lives right, got alot of time. but when is this cycle gonna end? don't forget, life is a struggle, and these struggles are just gonna get harder till the point where you're gonna make yourself think Delusion, is Enlightenment. that's when you'll never get there anymore. when are you going to start breaking the vicious cycle? now? or never?

i'm not too sure for other religions, but i think it's safe to say that an orthodox religion, doesn't change its teachings to accomodate society. it's the process of learning that has changed, but not the rights and wrongs. these changes in process have so much been pinpointed and exploited, and somehow it becomes true. it's pretty saddening.

definitely, successful people tell you morals and values are not the way to money sucess and all. but getting achievements in fame, wealth, and many other credential aspects, brings happiness to one, not many. and how long can you keep those with you? do we really need to wait till we're 70years old to know what we can bring with us? or are we not going to realize even until the last minute of our lives? if we think we're smart or lucky tohave done things right, just because we have materialistic successes now, think again. what you haven't really face, is yourself.

don't tell yourself it's right, and sink in, when you jolly well know that it's not. don't make things too convenient, or it'll be meaningless. because everyone does it, it doesn't mean you'll be spared from guilt. even you have done something wrong, it doesn't mean you need to continue.

changes can be done in gradual steps, don't wait for others to start. ask yourself, when are you going to start? when you need to? or when you want to?

i've seen regular ex-convicts turn a total new leaf. ex-prostitutes, stop what they're doing. gamblers, teaching people how to quit gambling. BUT i'm seeing even more people joining the "big group", staging protests, joining the crowd, cause it's really cool. easy way out, but also shows that you're not up to the challenges.

it all boils down to self-discipline, good changes, humbleness, listening, and most importantly, integrity. start with you.

if you say, not now, then when? if you say, not you, then who?

see the REAL struggle, it's not the part about eating humble pie, not the part about abstinence from common society habits, it's being deluded. cause delusion, will be there to stay, until you decide to CHANGE. i think that life is less struggling after i've gone through certain obstacles trying to gain enlightenment. i'm not really there yet, but i'm happy i'm still trying. and it's all in the heart, how much you wanna do it, because nobody can do it for you. you gotta wanna do it yourself =)

ok there isn't gonna be an end if i need to finish writing this. i think it's sufficient for now. pretty much all i'm thinking. if you finish reading this, i thank you a lot. and i seek forgiveness for any bad vibes displayed subconciously on my part. please ignore them, and seek the literal meaning behind content. thank you =)

good and bad

2011-04-03T19:17:00.002+08:00

just as i decide not to update until a very long time later, cassandra motivated me to LOL !! i thought no one was reading this anymore, until she said she actually does o.0 i'm surprised cause i thought only people like SJM, belley, shannen, and XF will read. so well .... a short post here.

i found some pretty cute things to cheer myself up, yeah i very sad one lor haha. beautiful things are worth some attention. so let's give it to them, before i start my sad stories (LOL).

tomatoes and oranges were not meant to be together lol ~

evil apple. i wonder what's in the right eye. was there a worm or something o.0

reminds you of the milo advertisement? haha. i think this is darn cool. but where did the water come from?

i initially thought this was a baseball bat =/ noob luh i know.

ok good things are always hard to find/come by. but sad stories and complaints i got alot. attributed it to my staying at home for too long periods of time lol.

nowadays ah .... nothing seem to matter to me anymore. everything i also don't care one. to the extent, i don't really wanna mean what i say, and i don't care if ppl mean what they say. oh damn, i think i'm losing hope in life.

don't be mistaken, i still mean it when i say my <3s to my besties, but i'm just lazy to be stubborn over stuffs if you know what i mean. i don't get affected anymore. feels like i'm living in an island myself.

yes i tried going out, but i feel so oblivious each time that i rather stay at home alone. how sia. i think i need a holiday right??? but god knows when i'll get my passport back from mommy, since she doesn't like my frequent trips to malaysia, she might as well sieze this chance to confiscate it longer =.=

on a random note, i watched QQ's hotseat yesterday and i totally wish i have QQ's kind of boyfriend, who doesn't mind if she digs her nose, or even fart in front of him. she's so lucky to have met people whom she can be like totally herself in front of them.

ya i know i still can burp and all in front of isabelle LOL !! but she's not here. and of course i don't do it at ease la, except for burping lol. i think if i start my concurrently farts and nose-digging in front of her, she'll un-friend me LOL !!!

aiya seee !!! i really not cut out to own a blog. the only thing i do with it is, COMPLAIN (lol). end here la end here la. i go sleep sua.

messed up feelings at the time of 2.41am

2011-03-23T02:06:00.002+08:00

i was flipping through my e-mails and there was one that dug up some not really awesome memories that i had near Valentine's in 2009.

i was just back from a trip to Kukop, and then there were much misunderstanding between me and this person. let's call him K.

i mean it's 2years back, perspectives of things have changed much. i mean love is really blind, if i wasn't in love then, i would have totally flipped the tables on K. now that i read his e-mail that stunk so much of arrogance, i came to realize how humans judge people, even if it means to hurt somebody. i don't mean to direct it at K, because i myself DID judge him too fast then, and hurt him in many ways too.

ok i felt insulted throughout the whole e-mail (LOL), not really humiliated since like i said, it was an e-mail. but of course i can understand in the shoes of both of us, now that i have light in my eyes lol.

it's funny how people keep shooting each other at the displeasure we get from hearsays. i mean sometimes they may be right about you outside, but no one will understand your true intentions/being better than yourself. whatever people predicted and said might have happened, but it didn't develop from a series of possesiveness or something along the line of what they mentioned.

i don't know why i'm writing this now, maybe because i'm still feeling kinda sad for the loss of what could be a possible good friendship. i was definitely to blame somehow, but oh well ......... i shouldn't have let my impatience + insecurity get the better of me. love makes you do stupid things, and you'll never win even if you tried to surpress it.

ok actually this happened so long ago, and my feelings ain't that fervent actually lol. i just realized another point which is that every Valentine's Day, something possibly bad happens. like few days before, something would happen to make me moodless about it. or in another case, something too good happens, but didn't last, and make me emo about it lol.

but i heard from the very friend who told me about the "meeting" that K had, that i was unhappy about. he told me, on V's day, K was asking if he should look me up since it's V's day. he told me just a day or two after V's day. but do you think i'll believe that after seeing that mail (2 days before V's)? of course i couldn't.

and then a week or two later, i got involved in an "accident". i was at loss, so i randomly/frantically/helplessly/insertwhateveremotion called up that friend for help. and he told me that K was rather concerned. and i was out with that friend after the "accident", he picked up a call, which he said was from K to ensure i was fine. if i could, i would GRAB the phone just to see if it's true. of course he wouldn't let me see. but what if .............. it wasn't?

and my best friend, after those incidents also told me what K told her before all the misunderstanding happened. it was so bloody sweet but i don't know it was good/bad to hear these. cause i need to get over K, and yet i was so broken that i just totally needed to hear nice words from him, although it's past tense.

now now now .......... it's like the past but i'm still ever so curious to know. from the first time i met him, till the day we really talked. then from that e-mail, to the above incidents. if i were to minus out all the bad comments i hear from other people. how would i figure him as a person? i mean, he was at two extreme sides. me too.

power of words. sometimes we talk so much, and just will never realize the possible impacts/implications that are incurred because of our blabbers. we talk and talk and talk, for it wouldn't be our business once we finish anyway. hardly anyone thinks hard enough before they talk about somebody else, me, you, everyone.

we need to just think of people we really care for before we start opening our mouths. because, everyone hates to be judged, isn't it? and the feeling of being judged wrongly by someone of importance, really SUCKS.

so really ............... what if things like that happen in the future. how am i suppose to respond to whoever it may be? i'm thinking so much now because i'd hate for this to repeat itself. how should i place my trust to people despite the anxiety creeping in, and opposing odds overwhelming you?

random: so i shouldn't complain so much about my V 2011 right? at least nothing good/bad happened =)

i'm getting glued to the idea of planning an escape on every V's day from now on. so what say you? ;)

from spotting great guys to handling your marriage.

2011-03-22T15:50:00.005+08:00

hohoho, i received my weekly newsletter from Shopping Lifestyle. usually i wouldn't read them but i'm like just too bored. and this spur of curiousity brought me to an interesting read. totally extracted from the website itself. and i'll just highlight some main points that really enlightened me.

HOW DO YOU KNOW THAT A GUY'S A KEEPER?

You're happy to call him your boyfriend right now but is he a keeper? According to relationship experts, there are certain character traits that give a strong indication of whether he's the right kind of guy to commit to in the long term.

So how do you spot a great guy? And more importantly, how do you tell if he's not marriage material? We got the experts to give us the low-down.

1. He's nice

'Bad boys' may sound more appealing when you're under 25 and you just want lots of fun and hot sex, says dating guru, Peter Spalton. But as you're ready to settle down with someone, your 'wants' evolve: And the truth is nice guys who don't lie and cheat their way through life make better prospects than cads. "Every woman wants to find a man who is loving, kind, and loyal," says relationships expert, Amanda Kane. If you're going to pick someone to go through life with -- through thick and thin -- his integrity is of utmost importance. He must also have the capacity for empathy: "The ability to understand your partner, and put yourself in their emotional shoes, facilitates constructive communication," adds Kane.

2. He is able to deal with conflicts constructively

Squabbles are bound arise in your relationship, it's how you deal with them that counts. Think about how he usually reacts when you fight. Can you get through an argument without him flying off the handle when you raise important issues? Does he talk things out in a calm manner? Is he willing to move on from the disagreement without holding a grudge? These are all good signs that he could deal with arguments in a mature manner. "Every relationship has inevitable conflict," says Kane. "Men who are good long term partners are able to manage their anger by acknowledging feelings and expressing them constructively, not destructively."

side note: 90% of guys will express DESTRUCTIVELY, so if you find one that does constructive thinking, please hold on and never let go LOL. most guys will go like "i'm gonna burst if this goes on any longer" etc etc. the comments usually revolve around his own emotions than the situation. this is a SURE sign that he will lack the empathy as stated in the first para.

3. He's got a good sense of humor

A good sense of humor always seems to feature highly on any list of desirable qualities in a prospective partner. It's a nice bonus to be able to have fun with a partner, especially if you're looking to be in it for the long haul. "A healthy sense of humor is a great way to diffuse heated arguments and put everyday spats into perspective," Kane explains.

4. You've got chemistry

He might seem like a great catch on paper, but what if there's just no spark between the two of you? If you've got very little in common, chances are that it'll be difficult to keep the relationship going in the long term. For Spalton, compatibility is one of the most important boxes to tick. "I believe that what you need to look for in a long term relationship is someone who you click with emotionally, intellectually and physically," he advises. "Similar sexual preferences/appetites are also very important. Trouble can be brewing if you like to experiment sexually and he doesn't, or vice versa." (HAHA)

7 SIGNS THAT HE'S READY FOR THE RING

Some men plop down on their knee and ask the magical "Will you marry me" question within a year of dating, while some are still taking things slow after five. It's hard to put a time stamp on everything, least of all relationships. And there's no right or wrong standard -- it really depends on the couple.

But as you're waiting for your guy to pop the question, how do you know that he's really in it for the long haul? Look for these signs that say he's ready to spend the rest of his life with you.

1. He's keen on couple time

If he's ditching time with the guys in favor of being with you, it's a sign that he's strongly committed to the relationship. It's not healthy to spend 24/7 together though, so there should be some balance between spending time with you and having outside interests to focus on.

2. He respects you

Does he listen to what you have to say? Is he willing to compromise to keep you happy? These are signs that he's respectful of you and cares about your feelings.

side note: this one is GOD DAMN DAMN DAMN important. if your happiness is essentially attributed to his, then there's not much problem that will go unsolved. as long as your happiness is first place in his heart, this guy is definitely ready for the ring. if he's still half not over his games or own hobbies/preference, never ever ever commit to him. not saying that he should totally forsake those activities, but he needs to have the ability to do so when the need arises. and if he can't do it for you, he can't do it for YOUR family with him. saying that he'll do it when necessary definitely DOES NOT COUNT =)

3. You're making long term plans together

When he discusses his future, does he speak solely about himself or include you in his potential plans? If he's talking more about "me" than "us", it suggests that he's not thinking about your relationship in the long term. If you're already actively making long term plans like buying a home, rest assured that most men won't want to enter into this kind of commitment without being completely sure that you're going to stay together.

side note: if he's completely sure, higher chance that he'll be more supportive of certain plans that will seem absurd to guys who aren't ready, he'll totally see your point, cause he's in it with YOU =)

4. He's getting his finances in order

Men often like to be financially secure before they feel comfortable making a long term commitment so if he's started looking at pension plans and other long term financial provisions, there's a good chance that he's preparing for a future that doesn't only involve himself.

side note: of course this is damn important. no money no talk HAHAHAHA.

5. You're always on the guest list for family events

Regularly being invited to spend time with his close family is a sign that he wants you to be involved in his world. Most guys wait until they're sure that the relationship has a future before they start introducing you to family and friends so it's a promising sign if you're a regular fixture at family gatherings. On a similar note, it's a good sign if he's also making a big effort to be involved with your family and friends as it shows that he wants both of you to play an important role in each other's lives.

6. He does a lot of the running

Does he take the initiative a lot in the relationship or is it you who's doing all of the work?

side note: this one is no joke !! trust me, guys have ego issues. if you do all the work, one day he's gonna tell you he feels that he has no say and then the relationships goes downhill from there. if he's not doing the work, make him start ~ take a step back. i know irritating right, don't want to do anything but want to say so much(lol).

7. His friends are settling down

Peer pressure can be a big factor in influencing when a man is ready to make a long term commitment. If most or all of his friends are making trips down the aisle, he may decide that it's high time he did the same.

side note: of course if it's just pure pressure, say no la !! lol.

FIGHTING STYLES THAT LEAD TO DIVORCES

after marriage, there're bound be some obstacles a couple has to overcome before living happily ever after. and what are some of those that fatally affects the marriage?

1. The most toxic fighting styles

It's common knowledge that couples who yell or call each other names have a higher chance of getting divorced. But the study found that one of the worst ways to fight is when one spouse deals with conflict constructively (for example, calmly talking matters through, listening to their partner's point of view) and the other spouse withdraws.

i swear to agree with the highlighted part 100%, totally irritating.

"This pattern seems to have a damaging effect on the longevity of marriage," said the study's lead author Kira Birditt. "Spouses who deal with conflicts constructively may view their partners' habit of withdrawing as a lack of investment in the relationship rather than an attempt to cool down."

Couples in which both partners used constructive strategies had lower divorce rates, the study found.

2. Men and women differ

Although women were more likely to use destructive strategies (like withdrawal) early in their marriage, they were also more likely to deal with marital conflicts in constructive ways over time as the relationship progressed.

Men's behaviors, on the other hand, stayed the same through the years. (so don't wait for them to change, if they don't change, don't marry them !! =D if not, you're likely in for regrets if in the end he doesn't change.)

"Relationships and the quality of relationships may be more central to women's lives than they are to men," Birditt said. "As a result, over the course of marriage, women may be more likely to recognize that withdrawing from conflict or using destructive strategies is neither effective nor beneficial to the overall well-being and stability of their marriages."

3. Fights in the first year of marriage are not divorce predictors

29 percent of husband and 21 percent of wives reported having no conflicts at all in the first year of their marriage. Nonetheless, 46 percent of the couples had divorced by Year 16. Interestingly, whether or not couples reported any conflict during the first year of marriage did not affect whether they had divorced by the end of the study.

i hope those were interesting info for everyone =) ok i'm off to slacking ~

for the cocoa friend

2011-03-20T19:32:00.004+08:00

this is for my cocoa friend, the reason for this name is that, he always buys me chocolates, i don't know why haha. so i went out with him a few days back, and i said he was nice. he didn't believe me, so he DEMANDED a list of 10 DETAILED reasons to substantiate my claim. (wah lao eh zzz) i wrote one before this, but kenna rejected cause it wasn't detailed enough zzzz. i try my best luh huh lol.

you're nice because .................

you'll pick me up at my place even if you live real far because you know i always forget some stuff when i go out. so you can remind me before we set out. (actually i think it's because you like the food at the hawker LOL)

when you don't, you'll meet me at a place of my convenience. you'll even quit a game that's halfway through to go meet me just so that i don't need to go down and watch, and then travel to wherever we're going again. super thoughtful.

you know i'm a food lover, but i can't eat everything i want in just a meal. so you'll suggest that we walk nearby the area until i'm really hungry and ready to settle for something. even though there's a shop of your interest nearby, you didn't go inside while waiting for me to be "hungry" and indulge yourself leaving me sian-ed one side. (though i think you would if it was a magic shop lol but you'll be showing me tricks la so i won't be bored lol.)

you pick out all the stuffs i don't want in my food like fried shallots, onion, and ginger before i eat them. and you know when not to pick out my "cong" in certain dishes LOL~ you always eat the chicken breast and leave the thigh for me although you said before you only eat thigh/drums =) and and and, you cut my chicken chop and peel my prawns for me SOMETIMES lol.

you'll always look out for my things because i like to play with my phone and just leave it on my lap or somewhere near, and sometimes forget about it when i leave.

oh oh oh !! very important this one hahaha. you'll finish your food very fast then go down help me queue for my milk tea so i can have it after my meal. LMAO !! the main point is, you don't want me to stand there and queue so long with you. lucky i don't like koi, if not you sian lol.

you always bring a bag or jacket to standby in case i didn't bring a bag to put my stuffs, or if i feel cold.

you'll carry my bag for me no matter how girlish it is to hang it on your arms. and always prepare my wallet for me before i board the bus, remind me to drink water from time to time and pat my back esp when i'm coughing badly. like my mom sia. =x

you don't have bored face when shopping with me, in fact you get as enthu as me lol. and when i'm really happy about stuffs i bought, you get DAMN hao lian about your taste LOL ~

although you suan people non stop like really ............. but you know when i'm really hurt about it even though i laugh off every comment. and you'll cheer me up unlike most guys who would just keep mum about it. i'm damn sure about this.

you always save the day !! lol. when we're lost or don't know what to do. or like the company is quite awkward one, you always have damn good solutions.

seeeeee got ELEVEN liao hor. can believe already? rainbow colour somemore lol. but i'm starting to think you're not nice anymore cause you keep bugging me for this =/ remember to say THANK YOU ah lol !!

what goes around comes around.

2011-03-18T06:41:00.003+08:00

someone said i don't seem to care that much about what hurt i bring across to people anymore. i don't even bother to redeem myself anymore.

because people are doing the same to each other. when you're hurt, they say you're absurd, they don't listen don't understand. they don't care unless the issue revolves them. so when they're hurt, i say that what they get hurt over is pure nonsense, no one relates to each other anyways.

i think it's just the case of returning what people are giving you, and most of the time they scream like they saw a villian. then what about those you ever did to me? are you not the same?

I have five fingers, but the middle one’s for you.

of course. what goes around comes around. whatever i'm returning you, someone will give to me someday. but just remembering how insensitive you were, i can't bring myself to be sympathetic with you. if anyone ever takes your misery/misfortune lightly, as a topic of their daily crap jokes, i don't think you can ever be serious with theirs.

so don't blame me for what i'm doing. you deserved it. if you hadn't done what you did, i'd never do what i just did. seriously.

sometimes we claim so much to not care about a person/can't be bothered etc. just to realize ourselves talking about them every min. so sweetie (you know who you are), i think he loves you, and somewhere there you like him back. so .... don't be scared =)

maternal instincts are contagious.

2011-03-16T06:09:00.003+08:00

so as you can see, the title of my post is about maternal instincts being contagious. why so?

a few of my friends have given birth on this week, and i feel so excited just reading their stories. i don't know if you people know this, but mommies link up each other on blogs, facebook, twitter, and for some, plurk. and then they help one another with symptoms and issues, so it's easy for me to blog hop like never-ending.

i got so hooked up on reading their birth stories and discovering their precious' existence in them, that's the reason why i ain't sleep even till now. (time check: 6.14am)

got to know so much about pregnancy until i feel like i'm prepared for one LOL ~ i should totally go and conceive one if singapore has a like sperm donation center right, so that i can wear the dress given to me by belley. (YOU WISH !! definitely kidding about this one.)

most of the pregnancies whether planned or unplanned are caused by accidents such as condoms breaking(LOL), and the failure of the withdrawal (if you know what i'm talking about). there're also rare cases of IVF, and such.

among all pregnancies i think it's pretty almost very common that babies need to be induced before being delivered. like when the EDD(expected delivery/due date) is up, and no symptoms of labour are found, doctors inserted like painfully big pills into THERE, to trigger contractions. if my child in future lazy to come out, i will threaten to eat pineapple HAHAHA !! obviously kidding right.

some of the stories are like so touching until i was moved to tears, no joke. but there're some husbands who are total jerks la. i mean most guys will stay with their wives once they admit into hospital, unless for very urgent matters. but i read that some went to meet up with friends and missed the birth of his child =.= worse still, WENT TO PLAY ARCADE !! o.0

seriously what were they thinking? if i'm the wife, i will throw the baby to him to look after singlehandedly for 10months since he thinks it's nothing to bear a child. and it's definitely a discounted punishment lor, just physically being tired. if the baby was a part of him affecting his emotions and mental state, giving him morning sickness, i think he'll also be damn sad if his wife is not supportive just like how he is now. teach him a lesson man. how can he miss that precious moment OMG !!

ok bringing new lives into this world is sucha happy thing, we should just ignore the sad parts. (though i read on a new born having a big hole in her heart, ok i know, stop being sad.)

i think it's so noble to be a mummy, and it sure feels blessed to receive great support from people around you like other mummies, your husband, family, etc. and i wonder if i'll be a happy mummy next time, or like some sad cases, whereby the people around them are just total BS. i hope not luh huh =/

thing is ......... why think so much LOL !!

it's hard enough to even find a BF. (not those anyhow grab one de la, someone who's truly suitable)

i'm not even financially stable at all.

definitely not emotionally ready for commitments.

and i'm still childish hahaha.

but i'm really really curious how it feels like to be pregnant leh lol. how i wish one of my close friends can get married and have a kid soon, and then tell me all the interesting stories. i'm sure it's gonna be a different viewpoint as compared to reading blogs. jia you ah my friends =)))

the most absurd people - EVER

2011-03-07T15:49:00.003+08:00

although on the calendar, after monday and tuesday, it reads WTF, it continues with SO SORRY MY TURN. after seeing all the rubbish, i feel like talking rubbish too.

if you get along well with a person, you're friends.
if you incoporate some part of your life with a person, you're good friends.
if you wish that person would incoporate his/her life with you, yes you like them.

but definitely, if you wish the person to like you as well, there need to be things done.

yesterday i rejected a guy and then i got the most absurd reaction from him ever.

WHY? BUT I THOUGHT YOU'RE SINGLE?

so? is that by any chance because of you? NO !! does it mean if i'm not, you won't even ask me out, not to say be your girlfriend or something? so freaking pathetic !! single so what? does it mean you need to grab any girl who's single to be your GF? there's no need to get into a relationship unless you really like that person dumb =.=

and then the most common reasons you'll find is ......

oh because we got closer recently and we hang out more, and everything seems like quite okay so maybe we could give it a try? i thought we could have something more going on.

HELLO ~ no effort no effort !! if you like somebody, even if things are not okay, you still like him/her alright? you will try make things go well for each other. if you only develop feelings when things are going well, and then feel a tad lesser when things are not on track, then you're just too goddamn shallow. and me going out with you, and playing along, DOESN'T MEAN I WANNA BE YOUR GF =.= it's more like a case of trying to be polite, you mean you don't even realize that so much of a coincidence i'm ok with all your plans?

AND OKAY .......... some guys really need to know the difference when they say date as compared to just going out. a date is for someone you're prolly real interested in, or your best friend. a lot more attention needs to be paid if you're going out on a DATE.

ok i'm talking about mostly group dates here. one-to-one is about too sensitive to talk about, as it varies much.

most of the times EPIC FAIL can. usually girls don't like it because it's mostly NATO (no action talk only), but some, can't even pass on the speech. but when it comes to bullshit, everyone is a pro lor.

during a group date, when your buddy makes an attempt at something, and fails, you call them pussy. when a girl is at loss what to do, you call them bimbo. we scream, you say drama. eh but too bad, when something happen, you only talk cock. make lame comments. everything except thinking and solving. at least those whom you call pussy, bimbo, or dramatic, TRIED to solve the problem.

if you're capable, come and ego i don't mind.
if you're also inefficient, please screw away with your ego. don't talk so much cock. your inability is there to see.

i especially hate those who are indecisive yet troublesome. don't date people out and waste their time if you know you don't have anything to do. you don't know what to do, people suggest you comment .......

but i don't really go (fill in the blank) leh .... [what suggest you then?]
wah not worth the money leh ....... [then what's worth?]

whichever more reasons you can think of luh huh. and sometimes thinking halfway ...........

*in a group*
Guy A to Guy B: oh let's go for a game of (LAN/pool/arcade/whatever) first.
Guy B to Guy A: okokok. maybe we can think of where to go after that.

after the game .................

Guys: so where to go ah?

_|_ please. in the end also never solve the problem, and you leave the poor girl hanging there and waiting. is this all about responsibility and priorities? YES.

if you so easily forget what's next on the list just because of a small distraction, major fail. don't waste people's time !!

and oh ~!! sometimes girls do get the blames for such cases. the guy planned, and brought the girl to quite ATAS places. what i mean by ATAS is >$30, for an average meal. so the girl didn't prepare enough money, and so she's accused of SPOILING the date.

eh please, you're planning an outing for two people, not yourself. if you are not ready to burn that hole from your pocket, kindly inform your partner in advance so she could feedback if she isn't going for that price.

ok all these is happening because those guys (in the above scenarios) are taking chances with girls. they don't really like them, but they're asking them out to see if by any chance, they become their girlfriends. (not all, but quite a handful.) whether they become a couple anot, it's purely based on what happens on dates. if it's smooth, pop the question. if not, then let's not be tgt lest things cock up again. (WTF)

BTW, i'm not talking about normal friend outings, i'm talking about dates here. double date or whatever counts as well.

if you really really liked the girl, you would've done some planning or so, to make the date go well. excuses such as ....

i didn't know the place moved house liao .....
i didn't expect it to be so expensive .....
i don't know there'll be a queue ......
i don't know the journey is so long ......

CAN be eliminated if you did some simple google search before you head out. if you're too lazy to even bother, it speaks alot about your sincerity.

however, if there was an unexpected event that caused a crowd, or traffic jams, girls please be understanding. but other than that, you can choose to walk off cause they don't deserve your company. just a gentle reminder again, i'm talking about a date with someone you like.

so what's the world becoming right now? relationship is about taking chances, no proper thinking or planning, zero sincerity, all based on luck and scenario is it? wherever god takes you uh.

please lor even if you pray to god for good results, you also have to study right =.=

SO THE POINT I'VE BEEN TRYING TO DRILL SINCE THE START OF THE POST IS ......

if you've never even put in enough effort to build a platform to walk, don't blame anybody if you fall. do you think just saying you like someone suffices enough feelings to start a relationship? simple phrase saying "walk the talk" is what that will get you going.

if you truly sincerely interested in somebody for who he/she is, prove it. those about planning and being considerate are just really small gestures. if you're too concerned about your own set of things and you think it's not possible to have enough time to plan, then you prolly don't like him/her enough. don't psycho yourself and date them out, cause no relationship like that is going to work.

taking chances bring about many negative impacts on others.

1) they feel lousy. they're many awesome people out there going on wonderfully planned dates, when they're stuck there hoping a good plan/solution comes out.

2) they feel awkward.

3) they feel insecure. cause they can't even be sure of what cock up problems you've next for them as you don't even have a plan. so don't even think of a relationship in this case.

4) they feel annoyed and frustrated. time is wasted, bullshit is heard.

so people, don't date people out unless you're really into them, and is willing to make the day start and end well. if not, just be friends, why the stress?

don't promise more than you're able to deliver.

the lamest blog post ever.

2011-02-23T19:23:00.009+08:00

which girl would you date? HAHAHAHA !! take your pick !! 慢慢看啊 LOLOL !!

ok i know i'm gonna kenna whack already. lame enough xDDD bored luh ~

2010 to 2011

2011-02-01T16:39:00.087+08:00

WARNING: EXTREMELY LOOONNNGGGGG POST.

behind part is more or less anyhow captioned, cause i'm rushing through the post. i'll try to edit them when i'm back from taiwan. (i need to post this before the lunar new year ends =/ if not the next paragraph is BULL !!)

HOOOOLLLAAAAA !! i'm here to revive the web again. i've seen many people doing up blog posts about their year 2010, but i decided to do something on my lunar year instead, so different ~ (actually it's procarstination =/)

ah well ........... i would have to say i love my year 2010, eventful and uneventful at the same time. i tried many new things i haven't done before ALOT OF FIRST TIMES, went to new places, but other than that, it was slacking, slacking, and more slacking. it was my most NUA year of my life.

so before i start my post officially going, let me wish all a happy prosperous new year !!!

on the 25th of Janurary (according to my memory), i sent my best friend, Isabelle, off at the airport together with Xiufeng. ok i was feeling so lost then, because she was quite a big part of my life. we're always talking, at each other's place, or go out tgt. i never really had a best friend, and i'm usually hopping around the groups kind, so i didn't know how was it to feel your bestie going away for a long time.

oh well, i didn't cry at the airport i think LOL. or maybe i did. i only remember crying when i sent her off at the later part of the year. anyways ............... time for pictures.

i miss her flat flat hair.

her moolahs, 50 England pounds.

i'm glad her brother will be flying with her. it's sucha long flight.

i love her family photos, reminds me of the times at her place. her mum would stuff me with loads of good food, not the 大鱼大肉 kind, but all the healthy ones. also, how i always have to go to the left side of her dad's so he could hear me call him lol.

fortunately after that, my projects kept me busy and distracted. i was preparing for graduation, on the 7th of Feb, i finished all my projects i needed to submit for the course. and on 24th of May, i officially graduated =)))) no more an 'O' level cert, but a Diploma holder =))) definitely memorable step in my life.

the quite chio invitation card for parents.

poly cliqueeee, moon was absent though.

with some of our classmates. michele came to find us, but didn't go for her graudation LOL !! as you can see, we all LOVE food. more pictures below.

i definitely miss the times in Ngee Ann. i remember so well that in the first year of my course, i totally couldn't wait to graduate and get out of that place. i hated the hills, the distance, the damn long breaks in between classes, and those classes which i thought was useless to attend. but of course, in my 3rd year, i took back my words.

and so, I GRRRRAAAAADDDDUUUAAATTTEEEEDDDDD !!

as ridiculous as it seems, it's my first time i wore my own robe(though rented) for my own graduation. if you believe me, my dad didn't even get me my robe for my kindergarten graduation, so i had to borrow from somebody for the photoshoot. *shoots puppy look*

the scroll that contains the key to my future =))

the dearest person who saw me throughout stages of my life. singlehandedly, she ensured that i didn't need to worry about school fees, my laptop needed for school, expenses, and even sometimes my extravagrant indulgences in food. thank you mummy !! you finally saw me going up the stage and receiving my cert !! don't have 四方帽, but i know it's all the same to you =))

the rest of photos taken on that day of myself and mommy only. oh of course i can't forget to thank my cousin, Joanne, for lending me her camera so i could have these beautiful pictures kept with me now.

and so ..................... my DIPLOMA =))))

as how my memory serves me, i went to thailand BKK on the 24th of March, as my graduation trip. my first time overseas with friends =))

i went for this trip with these wonderful people =))

we stayed over at zarra's place, and left for the airport in the wee hours. the flight was short, like an hour and a half. so just some camwhoring ............................

and more actually ............

how can it just stop at two?

getting out of hand.

and *conked* we didn't sleep for the previous night whatttt. rest before starting on our "Adventure".

and we are HHEERRRRREEEEE !!!

greeted with a happy message ...............

and runny nose. only zarra, ky, and me though lol.

the place of our accomodation. 38mansion !! wonderful and very recommended.

at thee lobby.

LOOK !!! our darn big living room. NOTE: this is JUST the living room.

and this is like one-third of ONE of our rooms. we have two by the way. and a kitchen outside too. super big and comfy, reasonably priced =) one week's stay probably cost you about 150-200bucks =)

the very first embarassing(well not exactly) thing we did:
after arriving at the station, bought tickets and went up to the BTS platform. you know in Singapore, people would be waiting all along the platform area, but in thailand, there'll be half the platform that was empty. and our Singaporean mindset, obviously we waited at the empty empty side, and felt lucky cause we could take pictures then. end up, actually the train is only half the length of the platform LOLOL !! so we had to hurry scurry along half the platform to board the train hahaha.

and the second embarassing thing was to take a seat at these reserved seats on the BTS. nopes it's not like in Singapore where these seats are for elderly, kids, or pregant women. it's reserved for monks, can see how much they respect their religions. but thankfully, there wasn't any monks around.

first meal in bangkok @ Shabu Shabu.

we walked around Siam, nothing much there. and then went to find Carrefour to buy our necessities. it was a ^&%^#$!$#%&^&( long walk. like 30mins?

ok and on the way we saw a lingerie shop, and spent quite alot of time in there. the real story is too embarassing to tell, i think the people have forgotten about it already, kept to myself =xxxx
and so, while waiting, zarra and ky ice-creamed.

FINALLY

let's just do some snippets of my memories in Bangkok so it wouldn't get too long-winded =)

the streets of Pratunum Market (i think?)

us buying things from the same shop to get discounts.

buying like there's no tomorrow.

and of course the "fashion show" for the girls in one of the rooms every night with the LOOTS.

yummylicious tom yam goong

our favourite tidbit, the lay's seaweed chips, which only launched in Singapore some months after we got back. i think we had at least 30packs of these throughout the trip.

the excitement and eagerness while waiting for food LOL.

our cup noodle indulgence.

the things that are never sold in Singapore (just kidding, those are lighters)

the television channel that screened like a monitor camera for pandas the whole freaking day hahahaha.

having HOT guys as wallpapers for the BTS trains.

how our moods were always sunny and bright at the start of each day.

how can we forget the RED SHIRTS *laughs*

beautiful shops amongst a not-so-beautiful environment @ chatuchak.

wierd statues.

and food coupons !! you know like you're in a camp or something haha.

like a small lil part of taiwan in thailand =)

the heat and thirst.

the amount of desserts we have each day to cool off.

crepes we have almost every other day. 30baht only =)

and our favourite stall !! we had this almost everyday cause it was near our apartment. 30baht for each cup, 3different ingredients, with cheng tng and coconut milk. super nice !!

cabbing EVERYWHERE (ok i missed out "almost").

buzzy streets of thailand near the platinum mall.

the time we got scammed into this tourist trap.

the pineapple rice could easily give you 3plates of fried rice in Singapore.

and the cheap good ones =)

and those who don't look good, but tastes heavenly.

that day when cabs refused to fetch us due to riots, and we ended up in a pizza hut look-alike restaurant.

early morning wrestles that made us wake up laughing.

the unchlorinated pool !!

more street photos ............

the mountain of oysters you get for approx. SGD5.

and then we're back from thailand on the 31st!! and i spent april and may working. i swear it was the worst time of my 2010. maybe the part about looking too much forward for my UK trip made that bad. anyways, i earned my own ticket and expenses to visit my bestie in the UK =))))

NOTE: from here, you'll be bombarded by alot of Isabelles LOL ~

most of my first times are here =) my very first holiday to an English/Non-Asia country =)

on the 3rd of June, i embarked on my journey to best friend =) super unforgettable. my first long haul flight ALONE, damn gurung. the dumb bangala i sat next to from colombia to dubai. the hilarious questions asked during the screening checks at UK. the first glimpse of my best friend waiting eagerly and a lil worried at the arrival gates =) and of course, knocking down the whole stand of crisps =))))

i said i wanted to go on budget trip, and my evil bestie brought shopping on the very first day LOL !! new look @ UK rocks !! i stayed at her place near parklane in Sunderland, and we maggie mee-ed almost everyday LOL.

i met a new friend, she's Hannah Hadman, i don't have any photos with her sadly. but i remember going to her house and boxing the hell out of Stuart LOL !! i'm just kidding, it's just that we both win him in boxing when it's come to Wii =)

the very first few photos i took when i got my feet on the UK =) this was inside the Bridges Shopping Mall.

i donated a pound to take this photo with her.

i love the way those streets look, no sky scrapers, nothing =)

sunny and windy is shiokkkk.

oh yes and we went to a museum. alot of their museums are FOC and are quite interesting.

look at this, their wedding gowns in the olden days. or was it pyjamas? i can't remember.

belle asked me to sit there and take a picture, and i was rather reluctant cause i thought it might make me look funny or bring me somewhere scary LOL !! she kept rolling her eyes cause i kept resisting HAHAHAHA.

the huge-est bicycle you'll ever find?

and we tried to break the lion's back.

again ... i was forced to sit on some chair hahaha.

she was shocked !!

and then emo ..... cause things have became so expensive overtime =[

and and and .......... belle mistook this for a coffin !! haha. guess what is it? no prize thou :/

my cute lady =)

there was this small lil playhouse there, real small like up till the shoulders or something. and then we went in to 发辉 the act-cute 精神.

classic !!

i challenged the lion ONE ON ONE.

a new friend found =)

we were trying to point to Singapore in this picture, was finding it for so long, but the lady with a grumpy face took the photo like from so far away. 早知道 anyhow point sua.

love all the pretty apartments.

act cheena in UK wth?

ooohhh poor gingerbread man. it was so cute that i felt like saving him, then isabelle scolded me crazy. cause i could only put him in the bin.

the mobile "markets" or rather grocer?

and to the next part of my first day there, NANDOS =)))

free flow fat-free ice-cream !!

the 3 kinds of sauces we tried.

isabelle's.

and mine. totally love the mashed potato.

the couple shirts i bought for them in thailand =) don't they look cute in it =)))

next bright sunny day, we were heading off to a funfair.

cute hot guys spotted !! no faces though. we went to durham for a walk first since the fun fair was a lil crowded.

not fair, the flower was more obvious on me than him !!

笑到没有剩。

sweet duo.

real bagpipe men, not those BB boys one hahaha.

and then there was alot of those small small lil flies all around. and we were scurrying away from it, cause it gets into your noses and all. haha like those in Bedok that were on the papers, people really make big fuss out of everything in Singapore lol.

and here we are !! funfair =)))

this ride is funny, i found it quite scary at first, kept screaming. until halfway, i shut up already. and we started chatting instead hahahaha.

this one is just like escape's rainbow but i tell you i almost cursed at a girl. it will spin you in a circle, and the only safety barrier was the rubber thing that you have to pull down after you sit, no locks, no latches, nothing. and every 3seats share a barrier. and it was just my luck that when we were at the highest point, that looney person decide that she wanna lift up that thing. so i stared hard at her, and push it down with all my might. grrr ^%$^%#$@

then stuart went on this really scary thing where you're actually standing. then you have a metal chain hung in front of you, say your tummy level? not a tight space at all. then they spin the whole thing almost perpendicular to the ground o.0 won't the top ones fall off and sandwich some people? omg and the people there are so daring, they still dare to jump and lift their legs, not worrying if they'll fly out.

stuart's feedback: you may feel like you can't breathe up there.

woah o.0

stuart won a teddy for belle, he's real good in darts. and one of the boys who was at the fair walked past us and gave him kudos, cause even he himself couldn't get that after many tries. but the vendors weren't sporty at all, they were so reluctant to give away the prizes and

candy shops are everywhere, but by far, this is the coolest i've seen.

the Monument area.
up to no good. this always happens when i don't feel like taking photos, but she insists.

the Bridges. very near her place.

on one of the weekends, Stuart, Belle's boyfriend, drove us to Whitby. i think we loveeeee that place =)

now ..... THIS originated from Whitby, something i learnt this year. i always thought draculas were just science fic.

this interesting man performing like just outside a cemetry lol. they have lots of street performers like that.

prolly the softest flower on earth? super soft toy like, very unreal. another first time in this year =)

some very nice old architecture. i remember it being quite famous but i can't remember the name for it. stonehedge? is it?

we disturbed horses. and it's my first time seeing a REAL horse. ok, go on, laugh. then continue to scroll down =/

my shop, totally.

this guy performing on the streets, nothing special. until we met him again at the ghost trial thing at the later part of the day. i think that's what they survive on, skills =) he's a pretty friendly guy.

another form of street jobs. and i thought it was really creative =)

yummy fish & chips but i still prefer Singapore's. because i like 鱼腥味 =/
and and and, i learnt that English people like mild vinegar on their fish !! was shocked cause i hateeee vinegar much, but it wasn't too bad, cause it's really mild and you could hardly taste it.

we tried taking "Artistic" shots. and both of us were saying together that the photo Stuart has taken didn't have that artistic feeling. but now when i look back at the pictures, i think he took the best one LOL !!

this one with the sugar was my attempt.

and this is HIS !!!

there were rats in the restaurant, that explains the hole. yeah right, not funny =x

i had a cold drink, at a cold place, and a cold windy day. shiok !!

i think this is the nicest picture i've taken. and the baby was real fat lol.

good try stueeeee !!

the lovely couple.

gou lou yok? LOL ~

we paid 1.20pounds to climb up this lighthouse. i heard from the woman that it was 81 steps high. till now i still wonder if she owns the lighthouse? =D like so relaxing only, sit on a bench, with her dog, read a book, collect money. shiok ~!!

ok the climb was really nauseating, but we made it !!!
enjoy the "view" !!

this was how high up we were.

the other lighthouse looks so puny like a toy HAHAHA.

beautiful shot !! i think the birds are so pretty there !! not like the black ones we have in Singapore.

creepy old school toilet.

and a even creepier door of an apartment.

there ~ the ghost trial thing.

while we went for the ghost trial, Stuart went to watch World Cup for USA vs England @ this New Angel Bar you see in the picture. and guess what, the ghost trial mentioned that it was rather haunted =/
the next weekend, we decide to head to London. and Stuart was really sweet !! he made us breakfast ~ ok i had English breakfast for the first time. YESSSS sua ku i know.

the man behind our breakfasts !!! he didn't burn the kitchen hahaha.

what's in the eye of an Englishman? reflections =)

it was a 3hour plus drive from Sunderland to London. we stopped over once for toilet break and then singing our way to London.

the first time i share a room with a couple LOL !! *ding !! lightbulb*

the streets a lil more crowded than Sunderland.

we lived in crown moran hotel which was 10-15minutes walk from this station. given my snail speed of walking, half an hour?

see those art at the walls near the station, cool?

went to the city area, i forgot which station though. and there, the entrance of Buckingham Palace.

think they have a slot for me =))

HORSE SHIT.

you can't see me, i can see you =DD

news anchor from a TV station. how lucky are we =)

police patrols on horses, and only females !! wierd huh.

see those old victorian wordings at the top of the building, who knows what they mean =)

and i miss their sub stations, popping out from nowhere haha.

OH OH !! and they've this very intersting place. where people could hold strikes, minor ones, everyday or something. campaign against certain issues. this is what Singapore totally lack, no space to vent our frustrations, voices not heard, that's why people don't exercise self-respect. if you realize, even though they hold strikes over there, their contents are pretty much self-dignified. wayyyy better than lamers who only personal attack with vulgarities on stomp.

the queen of england might not be too happy to see this :/ but i guess she did.

few icons of London.

they promised me food very soon, but we literally walked half the city and then we settled down in some restaurant who claimed to serve portions that could feed an elephant. stuart took two bites, and that was what left.

doesn't this look like some HK narcotics bureau? but it's a subway station hahaha. damn grand or what. but inside it is like MANY MANY tracks, we almost got lost.

very good artists there. they're all over the streets.

and then we brough an english man, for chinese tea hahaha.

stuart, trying to explain the route to two blur ladies. see the lines, FAINTS !!

my favourite building, the london financial center stock exchange building. where people become very rich or very poor. i think half the world's economy floats here or something.

ONE REGRET: didn't get a better photo of it, should have came during day time.

tower bridge, or in Singapore terms, London bridge. isn't as grand as we always pictured it to be, very overrated from our childhood rhyme lol. but it was quite a beautiful sight at night.

ok my first time camping at a hotel lobby for free wifi LOL !! we're facebook addicts.

on our last night in London, stuart and belle were very nice, they accompanied me to my friend's place. she's Guo Jing !! =))) my 爱爱. i FORGOT to take a photo with her, WTH right !! she just moved into her new apartment, like JUST only. but she played a very good host to all of us, ordered damn loads of food for us.

sidenote: i miss the strawberries in London !! you never had to worry about it being sour. all was like red and bright, almost looking fake. but sooooo delicious !!

her cat, who's ALOT fatter now, mi-an =) scottish fold cutey cat !!

and the watermelon there, so sweet !! not as juicy but the sweet is really =DDD

cute-sy strawberry =))

this was hotel breakfast. yumyumyum !!

and the very very expensive room service ice-cream. 3scoops for i think 6pounds? if i'm not wrong. i can't recall actually =/ it was around that amount.

the don't-want-to-get-out-of-bed moments.

red London bus =)) 2pounds per trip, comfort delgro earn alot of ka-ching $$$

we went to watch a play "Les Miserables". "Phantom of the Opera" was totally sold out =[ but this one was freaking nice as well. really love the darn good vocalists. 20odd pounds for a 3hour show, loved every bit of it !!

before the UK trip ends, let me share a secret with all of you:
UK's dimsum beats Singapore's hands down !!!!!!! seriously !! my favourite one here ~

and we drove back, reached Sunderland at about 2am. we packed, i cooked noodles for Stuart and myself, but he fell asleep before i was done cooking LOL !! so belle and me stayed up the whole night, and i was telling her let's not sleep on the plane so we wouldn't be jet-lagged after that. but all was nonsense, we slept throughout the journey, i hardly remember being awake hahaha.

isabelle's most detested airline.

we fell in love with LG for 7hours.

cause of the power point =)) that kept us entertained during our transit time. luckily i had a spare laptop with me, cause belle's was damaged during an accident on the plane.

enough of ah neh food :/

when we land at around 10pm, on the 25th of June, we chiongggggg-ed out !! for singapore food haha.

but more importantly, singapore friend HAHAHAHA !!!

very soon, we couldn't hold out our cravings anymore, so it's suki sushi for us !! on the 30th of June.

FAVOURITE, only if it's hard frozen.

SUPER HAPPY i tell you !! cause jap food in UK was =/.

while waiting for our movie, i ........ jetlag LOL !!

and i really love isabelle LOL !! we can watch the same movie and have the same thoughts at the same time. we were watching Karate Kid, and we bitch-ed about the china boy in the show at the same time LOL !!

i left my "husband" at the UK cause his MOTHER didn't allow me to bring it back. so he sent some of his friends to say hi =)

next trip ........................... this taiwan snack shop, which i got tempted to try when i bloghopped and saw a post on it.

ok this is at BK, it's here because i like the picture can? lol.

aiya i lazy to caption. just yum yum yum yum yum for the food ok LOL !!

and on the 14th of July, we had our very much missed AIRPORT STAYOVER !! =DD

i was v v v v v v hungry, but isabelle this girl ah, keep forcing me to take photo FIRST. take photo take photo take photo like paparazzi.

i refused, she insisted. so i know stubborn isn't gonna work for me. so *flash a smile* =)))

pattern somemore.

keep smiling !!! i'm already on the wheels, don't wanna walk liao.

WAHHHHH tak boleh tahan.

ate my fish soup "illegally" at starbucks. and the night continues .........

then isabelle, again ...... want to take photos ............

i tried to be distracted by her camera. shannen tried too.

but no !! food more important hahahahaha.

just kidding lah !! smile =DD

the "Trapped" xiu feng, we webcam with her, cause she can't come out.

and belle's relationship became long distance for 2months LOL !!

in the wee hours, we had an impromtu decision, to head over to east coast park. and the plan was to do an MV lol !! no way !! i'm not gonna post the link here, just know that it turned out quite ok hahaha.

monkey in the train, she couldn't stop jumping about.

and then ........ isabelle ......... want to take photos again ........................... !!!!

so i see the lighting quite nice, i also want to try. wah take take take, ALOT of photos.

smile smile smile until my face cramp LOLOL !!

ok below are parts of our MV. details not disclosed =)

isabelle slept on my lap all the way from marine parade to bukit merah. and luckily i could still stand when i was supposed to alight hahaha.

being not very over the idea of beaches, we held a "camp" on the 28th of July at Changi Beach.

the very first time i learnt to pitch a tent. ok i didn't help at all, but prior to this, i had zero idea how pitching a tent was like. i didn't know there was those rods you need to stuff inside blah blah LOL !! precious lesson.

all the fun shots of the night. we were all laughing like mad, but now, i cannot remember what were we laughing about already hahaha. but it's times like these that are happy and memorable =))

i think this was about sumo wrestling =/ trying super damn hard not to laugh.

check out the beautiful shots of the sunrise =))))))) first time watching a sunrise. and i'm so glad it's with my great buddies. imagine if you watch with some guy and then you both break up, then your first time memory would be like :/ something you wanna erase there, yet cannot.

when planes fly over, we always try to guess which airline. and isabelle could totally identify emirates from far, she just hate them so much LOL !!!

yawwwwnnnnssssssssss. i tell you, don't ever camp in a tent, not comfy at all. lots of sand and ants, very warm, can't sleep one.

morning exercise !!

hop to the next favourite activity, TEO HENG !!! it's 4.26am in the morning, let me skip the captions pplleeeaaassseeee =D

she didn't know i took her ez-link. was it me? who stole the ez-link card on the public bus? who me? yes you !! couldn't be? then who !!

I GOT LAID !! *like real*

dino dino crawl out from the cave.

like the minahs on the poster.

then it was belle's advanced 21st birthday celebration !!!!!!!! as well as her farewell =[[[

her with allllll the food.

don't see like i going to 偷吃 ok !! the food is RAW one hor, i help to COOK !!

favourite shot of the day !! i started this fire =) credits to jasper for the photo !!

her birthday cake surprise =)

very happy girl =)

L-O-V-E i love you and you love me !!

we went to sherilyn's birthday party as well. super grand and awesome !!

this is 1/8 of the huge toilet. and a drunk guy asked us to take a photo like that =/

sexy ladyyyy ~ XF, if you think this photo didn't exist anymore, you're wrong !! haha. i'm gonna show it to your kids next time.

Jojo Ariel says HI !! =)

the party ended with XF going off to powerhouse to find that guy, and then we cab back to the chalet, and walked out to 7-11 to hunt for food. met a chameleon halfway there, they freaked out. i wanted to take a photo, but was worried that it might attack us. took a photo, but cannot see lah :/

and then it was time for isabelle to fly back to UK =[ how i wish i can go back with her. below are just many many pictures. it's 4.34am, i'll caption them SOON ok SOON !!

i love all my friends =)))) and yes, we cried when she went into the departure hall. we miss you !! so very much. i promise if you come back soon, i will let you take ALL the photos you want when i feel like it :/

i got myself busy with work to distract isabelle's absense, yeah i'm so dependent on her company right =/

soon it was time to celebrate moon's 20th birthday !!! i met up with the clique minus KY, at the esplanade after my roadshow.

i love all the photos taken that day, so candid and happy-looking =)) but uploading them almost killed me, i mean i wasn't the one who did it, but for this post, and only this few photos i feel like dying already. so loads of thanks to zarra and moon for uploading !! =))

spot Alicia in the background !! be sure to enlarge the photo LOLOL !!

i can't jump with my legs bended =[

soon we'll be going to Bali together !! and that's one more memory for us. can't wait. loves much !!

Lynnette's birthday with SJM !!! this girl, used to wear school skirts like below knee length, now the shorts getting shorter and shorter and shorter and shorter and shorter !!! not even mid thigh length ok !!

HAHAHA anyway, happy 20th birthday !! oh ya musn't forget to mention, she has a damn great figure that someone in the same restaurant as us spot her to be a model. not like it's her first time or something, but wahhhhh, envy LOL !!

made her go around the cafe asking people for her present. so her script goes as "hi give me my present" LOL !!

and the crew which we appointed to safekeep the present for us was quite cooperative. whenever lynnette was near her, she siam-ed in an very not obvious way, super natural. until lynnette had to give up then we told her it was actually that waitress. thank you for your participation !!! =DD

hard-earned present LOL !!

AND GUESS WHAT !!! MY TURN =DDD my birthday ~ it was quite bad at the starting of the day, but it ended off pretty well =))

the sponsor for the BBQ, loads of leftover though :/ the great mommy !!!!

camerawoman-cum-bestie !! i ALMOST forgot to take photo with her lor !! cause she was like snapping away, then we didn't realize i didn't snap with her lol.

my 干儿子 =) who got me the very nicey cake =DDD

beloved SJM PLUS ONE lol !!

some of my cousins and relative. he's a very close uncle of mine, the rest too shy to take photo =[

poly loves !!! zarra's bf came too !! moon had very early work schedule, and KY was busy chasing his GF-to-be then. and they got attached on my birthday LOL !! so it simply means he's gonna absent him on my following birthdays %$%#$@## nvm, as long as i have the girls, i'm more than contented =)) thanks for coming and walking the distance to find me =)) loves !!

this 3guys, suan-ed me throughout the event lor !! i didn't know my godson clicked so well with them at first attempt. jon, stop buying over all my friends !! and thank you for the great help that day itself. i would totally DIE if not for you. THHHAAANKKKKK YOUUU !!

yiwen and vincent, who did most of the cooking =)) thanks for coming !!

and the latest-comer LOL !! thank you for changing your mind and then going down for drinks tgt =)

on my 20th birthday, i had like SIX bags as present. on my 21st, who dare to give me bag, i will squeeze you into the bag !! hahaha. i'm just kidding la ~ really.

on the following week, it's xiufeng's 21st celebration !!! helped her to check-in her chalet, open the door until i almost went bonkers. i have trouble with open doors, and bottle caps =/

tooooo many pictures !!!!!!!!! i only loaded those with me inside =/ LOL !! 自恋 !!

fooling the mafia wahahahaha ~

i will never ever ever ever forget this day where we played ban luck with WATER !! my bladder was so full that i could stand at the shower area, and my pee just flow w/o my brain even programming it to LOL !! unglam i know.
and that botak hong wei !!! he take the cards until more than 21pts liao, he still for fun take the next card. guess what? i had 2 sevens on hand, and he took away my third one zzzzzz. then i gotta drink water again !!

anyway, spot the buay tahan faces LOL !!

and then towards the later part of the year, SJM learnt that our dear 老姐 was flying off to London for 4months, so we planned regularly outings like trip to USS, steamboat at her house, teoheng etc etc.

i didn't have a "plus one" that day =[ cause RF was supposed to be mine. but it's ok =) made a new friend, her sister, who used to go to the same school as me.

on one of those days i made a trip to the science center after donkey years with my long lost friend, zemin. CSI experience !! another first time for the year. no photos :/ and then we crazed over mahjong and maplestory for quite awhile. yeahhhh no photos, but happy times =) so it's here on this post.

celebrated Meichan's 21st on the 19th of Dec. she held it at a very ATAS condo near clarke quay LOL !! it's her relative's la. we helped to decorate the venue, and i think we did pretty well =)

it's THEIR celebration actually but her sister decided to do it at a later date =) they're twins btw.

her guestbook was done SUPER gorgeously !!

food was yummy, company was great !! everything was goooooddddd !!

and on that day, we learnt that moon has psychic powers !! she could predict bus arrival times w/o checking at all !!! more like psycho hahaha.

teoheng for the greatest SJM !! we all didn't have enough sleep so all abit sot plug, but who cares !! that's what brings in the fun.

we took alot of photos of the three of us, so that 老姐 would see it and miss us more in London. we're trying to squeeze some space in her heart which is all filled with JJ lol !!

on the 10th and 11th of Jan, SJM (san jie mei) camped at SIM to start storming up a scrapbook for our 老姐. not easy, totally not easy !! LOL !!

it's me, doing the most frustrating part of the book. gotta do it to believe it.

look who's doing, and who's not? hahaha !!

i kenna pangseh-ed a few times lor =[ and see what they do, take photos. hahahaha complain complain complain =D

had these for our dinner that day cause the stalls were all closed.

even hitched a ride from a stranger !! cause rain just wouldn't stop, and the distance was like 15mins walk at least. he brought us to wierd places LOL !! i mean he took a more ulu route la. but thankfully he was sukuna's friend, my IEP lecturer LOL !! then i felt more safe about it. was still thinking of when to pull his gear to P position if he tries anything funny HAHAHAHA !!

SJM !! with truck loads of love.

broken slippers when we were rushing to the airport HAHAHA !! MUST BE THE CUTTING OF PHOTOS !!

our hard work paid off, it turned out well. and pretty =)

at the airport, we were competing with RF's going-to-low-batt iphone for more pictures. she used a korean app to create these effects.

the not-very-good-to-use effect hahaha.

there're alot more actually but the effect cut off alot of our faces, so not posted =)

SOON it's CNY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lo hei !!! wan lor !! ong lai bia !! bua kiao !!

and very soon, about 29hours more, i'll be flying off to taiwan, and missing my 20th Vday(cause i'm born aft 14th Feb). hopefully i'll spend my 21st Vday attached to my future husband-to-be LOLOL !!! luck please be on my side !!!!

and here i'll like to thank all of you who were part of my 2010 and 2011. even those not mentioned, and we meet up often, thanks to all of you that i had a great year !!

to those who brought me real bad memories, fuck off. (weemeng, if you ever read this, it might seem misleading to you, but you're not one of them i swear LOL !!)

w/o reference to the above paragraph ....... at some point along this year, i "fell in love". like really more "in love" than i expected it to be. but i hope in the new year, i'll get over it. no no no no, i BELIEVE i'll be over it.

and i look forward to more great memories ahead =))))

thank you SJM with the plus ones, isabelle, yappy, shannen, amanda, cass, hong wei, jon, chris, lance, the reindeer, zemin, zarra, moon, jamie, meichan, alicia, KY, poly classmates, yi wen, pei sheng, relatives, cousins, and of course biggest thanks, to mommy !!

if i missed out anyone, i'm goddamn sorry !! it just so impossible to summarize all the awesome people i'm with for the year, forgive me ~ just thanks to EVERYONE who's a part of it, be it little or much, you made a difference =)

FINALLY !! this post is somewhat completed. very long-winded, but it's all the details that i treasure with my friends. thank you if you bothered reading all the way till here !!!

signing offf .........................

men are from mars, and women from venus.

2011-01-20T05:16:00.000+08:00

do i really seem like i'm bulletproof to YOU?

2011-01-19T00:18:00.002+08:00

i know i'm ok already.
jolynn, don't let anything pull you back =)
move forward to happiness,
throw everything that makes you sad away ~

you're just gonna be a very very good friend =)

FMLFMLFML

2011-01-17T23:31:00.003+08:00

i was twitter-ing couple of moments ago, and then FML.com started to spam my timeline. so i hopped over for a look, and it's giving me such urge to blog cause today's FMLs are either really funny, or really asking for it. (of course partially is to keep up with updates) i just have to release my sacarsm now, heehaa !!

FML 1
Today, my girlfriend was giving me a hand job. As I reached my climax, she thought it would be funny to turn my 'weapon' against me. Boom, headshot. FML

now you know how it feels like to have it on your face, since i heard that guys like to do it on their partner's faces. FML? how many times have you FuckedHerLife? WAHAHAHA revenge is sweet.

FML 2
Today, my dad’s best friend, who has been his business associate for the past 28 years, took me to a Star Wars store for my 18th birthday. He put on a Darth Vader helmet, and imitating his voice, said: "I am your father." I laughed. It wasn’t a joke.

some kind of dad you have. kept a friend who screwed your mum by his side for 28years. what if he said "we are your fathers."

FML 3
Today, in the middle of the night, my girlfriend whispered "Are you asleep?" I chose not to respond, to see what she'd do. She then let rip a loud, stinking fart, giggled, and went back to sleep. FML

it's indeed damnnnnn shiok to fart, i swear. the guy FML about this, but it sucks more when guys fart in public to disturb their girl-friends and everyone just laughs it off, so why the FML when girls fart? dumb MCP.

FML4

Today, I signed my own plaster-cast to make people believe that I actually have friends. FML

i would pretty much do the same if i have very little signatures on it =) i would even buy a lot of hampers, fruit baskets, and food to show.

FML 5

Today, and ever since I was born, I've had a lazy eye. This morning my boyfriend broke up with me. He thought it was funny to state that we just weren’t looking at life in the same way. FML

another convenient excuse would be, our balls can't seem to be growing in the same places. that's how dumb some people can get.

FML 6

Today, my boyfriend sent me a picture of his morning dump because it was heart-shaped. FML

next time if the girlfriend has big long pieces of faeces, she should send it to him and tell him that it looks like his dick.

ok i'm like abit angsty now LOL. because most of the posts was about guys having the upper hand, and i cannot tolerate incessant MCP. abit is cute, but alot is crude. ok i don't know where this post is going.

INITIALLY ~ my inspirations to blog was funny one lorrrrrr. until i read those again, my funny mood went on a walk liao ............... =[ signal: it's time to turn in and end the day. i'm getting grumpy FuckMyLife

i'm officially international !!

2011-01-15T12:56:00.002+08:00

today i was feeling rather bored and decided to check on my nuffnang account since i haven't done so for some time. and then i came across this thing that shows the sources of my visitors.

totally shocked me !!

i have friends in singapore, UK, and taiwan, that's about it. so how to explain the rest o.0 it may be just a few visit counts, but the number of colours is making me feel a little "famous" now lol !! cheap thrill.

口是心非

2011-01-14T22:21:00.004+08:00

sometimes even when you're NOT HAPPY, you choose to act otherwise. just so that, everything doesn't get worse.

how many of the LOLs and the HAHAHAs are real?

how many times do people really feel EQUALLY HAPPY, when they're not the first-hand owner of the HAPPINESS?

but why do i feel HAPPY for you, when i'm not the one sharing it together with you?

i'm not the kind type of person. i'm selfish, possessive, bossy, and everything. this sucks man !

i wonder if my feelings are really invisible to you. or maybe you think i'm bulletproof.

random TTM

2011-01-04T05:10:00.004+08:00

i just ate a whooping amount of 10chocolates at 5am. and i'm just blogging to remind myself. those who hate me can start laughing, but don't let me catch the same happening to you 10 times.

this is a really random post huh =) i'm just feeling a little NEW after a nap since midnight.copied something from my 干儿子's journal, funny shits he always find lol.

Commandment 1:
Marriages are made in heaven. But, so are thunder and lightning.

Commandment 2:
If you want your wife to listen and pay strict attention to every word you say, talk in your sleep.

Commandment 3:
Marriage is grand – and divorce is at least 100 grand!

Commandment 4:
Married life is very frustrating. In the first year of marriage, the man speaks and the woman listens.
In the second year, the woman speaks and the man listens.
In the third year, they both speak and the neighbours listen.

Commandment 5:
When a man opens the door of his car for his wife, you can be sure of one thing – either the car is new or the wife is.

Commandment 6:
Marriage is when a man and woman become as one;
The trouble starts when they try to decide which one.

Commandment 7:
Before marriage, a man will lie awake all night thinking about something you say.
After marriage, he will fall asleep before you finish.

Commandment 8:
Every man wants a wife who is beautiful, understanding, economical and a good cook.
But the law allows only one wife.

Commandment 9:
Marriage and love are purely matters of chemistry.
That is why a wife treats her husband like toxic waste.

Commandment 10:
A man is incomplete until he is married.
After that, he is finished.

ok that's all, the picture below is for all the girl's out there. it's taken from my friend's, gwen's blog. yes i copied again =/ plagarism kills.

parents and love

2010-12-19T20:25:00.004+08:00

sorry for the long long long long hiatus. i actually almost closed down this blog, but memories are all too special and precious to forgo.

so what sparked this post?

i stumbled across this blog yesterday, again:
http://ashleyisourangel.blogspot.com/

it depicts the pain of parents who fought battles with their unfortunate seedlings, who eventually lost their chances to embark on the journey of life with them.

for the posts, made me treasure my life so much. you think kids come by easy? just screw and get pregnant?

my dearest mommy had a few miscarriages before she gave birth to me, and another one after i was born. it made me feel alot luckier to be able to live, and an affinity i never want to break. mommy went through all the setbacks and breakdowns to have me, and now she only has me.

i started reading this years back, and as i read through the older posts, i was deeply saddened that i cried. conception and pregnancies might have been a breeze for most of the couples, or some even try to prevent them. but such simple joy to us, they fought hard and tough. they treasured moments like we never did. they lose three kids and all the faith, but never the love.

so what is love and life really? it's our parents and us becoming parents.

ok i don't know how to go on here ......... but i'm just really affected.

it's a love song

2010-11-24T19:47:00.002+08:00

this song is my recent addiction, probably because it speaks of the story between two people so truly.

quick someone !! go and learn this song, and then head to karaoke with me =DD

have we been expecting too much, and not looking at what's already given to us?

2010-11-21T09:29:00.004+08:00

"I Love You"

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him. Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl…

“Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?” I asked.
“I can’t”
“Why? You need to study at home?” I felt disappointment grabbing me.
“No… I am going to meet a friend…”

He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word ‘love’ only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say ‘I love you’ before. To us, there weren’t any anniversaries at all. He didn’t say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days…200days… Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don’t know why…

Then one day…

Me: Um, Jin, I …
Jin: What…don’t drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ……you….um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my ‘three words’ and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many…
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But… lunch passed, dinner passed… and soon the sky was dark… he still didn’t call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin…

Jin: Here…take this…
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What’s this?
Jin: I didn’t give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I’m going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen.Then I shouted… “Wait…”
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left.
“I don’t want to say…that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.”
That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb… and I collapsed to the ground. He didn’t want to say it easily… How could he…. I felt that… Maybe he is not the right guy for me…
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn’t call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That’s how those dolls piled up in my room… everyday

After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that… I saw him on a street… with another girl… He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me…as he touched the doll… I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell… Why did he gave these to me… Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls…In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that… it’s going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.

Jin: Min, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn’t help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual…
Me: I don’t need it. Jin: What….why…
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don’t need this doll, I don’t need it anymore!! I don’t want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.
“I’m sorry” He apologized in a tiny voice. He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll…
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!

But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll. Then…

Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
“Jin! Move! Move away!” I shouted… But he didn’t hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
“Jin, move!” HONK~!! “Boom!” That sound, so terrifying.
That’s how he went away from me. That’s how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him… And after spending two months like a crazy person… I took out the dolls.

Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days… when we were in love…

“One…two… three…” That was how… I started to count the dolls…
“Four hundred and eighty four… four hundred and eighty five…” It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly…

“I love you~, I love you~” I dropped the dolls,shocked.

“I….lo..ve…you??” I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.

“I love you~ I love you~” It can’t be! I pressed all the dolls’ stomach as it piled on the side.
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
Those words came out non-stop. I…love you… Why didn’t I realize that….That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn’t I realize that he love me this much… I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it’s stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much…

“Min…Do you know what today is? We’ve been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn’t say I love you…. Um… since I was too shy… If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you… everyday… till I die… Min… I love you…”

The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now? He can’t be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute…

For that… and for that reason… to me… it became courage… to live a beautiful life

for a dearest person

2010-10-27T02:11:00.003+08:00

my poor girl, apparently isn't having an easy time over her side. she's faraway, and it's hard for us to be really there. as i recall my poly days, which were kinda as hectic as what it sounds, i still had her to help me do my learning corner stuffs. it was a very good feeling that i had a friend so nice to help, and i so much wish i could return that, helping her to film and stuff.

i too, miss the times we were just readily there for each other. just a phonecall away, or even three bus stops to reach her personally. how we share common thoughts, interests, and likings. how we could just scream and be rude to each other, yet never felt offended. we seem to always know what was funny to each other, and her responses were SO PREDICTABLE, the screaming, laughing, which sometimes came along with a few smacks or grabs at my poor arm. talk about telepathy, we say the same things outta nowhere at the same time super randomly, we have our monthly thing together, and have it end together as well, sometimes fall sick at the same time, and running into good luck on the same day too.

how we never quarrelled, or got angry with one another (i think we do, but it was never real anger =D). it sounds lesbian-ish, but we couldn't express the immense love for a friend. many friends come and went off in my life, i never felt like i had to keep anybody by force, but this girl, she can't escape as my bestie anymore haha. i'm kidding, cause we don't even need force to keep close =)

although sometimes when i read posts like this, i feel like grabbing her back to her comfy home, but i know she's a star, she's there to shine. despite the hardships presented to her, she met real love, a very nice man she could rely on for support probably throughout her life. i believe he's there as us, because with him, her days are definitely more beautiful than if she never had met him.

i can't believe i couldn't keep my emotions at this time upon reading that post. i miss her so much, but i didn't want her to feel empty, now it's pouring all out. just as i was almost getting all emo, belle told me about a tentative plan of returning to singapore for a week. not confirmed at all, but the thought of it entertains all the loneliness, and it makes these months easier to pass.

belle, i love you =) i know it's mushy, but there hasn't been anything more special than this friendship. it's like we share the same cells =) dear you, i just wanna say, i'll never be able to forget you silly even if one day i choose to. if god chooses to make me senile and forget you, i'm sure he's planned to let us meet in an even more beautiful way =) don't feel sad, don't feel far, cause i'm keeping your heart close to mine !!

facebook fun

2010-10-23T18:03:00.003+08:00

i swear i almost found facebook damn boring, until i found some phrases so funny that i can't stop myself from sharing. (bullshit, i just don't have ideas to blog) *smiles with teeth*

it's gonna be the most unoriginal post ever, and here it goes lol .......

1. boyfriend and girlfriend were text-ing

boy: are you okay?
girl: yeah why?
boy: because you seem sad, are you lying to me?
girl: no i'm fine pinky promise
boy: ok good

girl thinking:

i loved how you could tell i wasn't okay, but i hated how you believed my lie.

2. dear tummy, sorry for all the butterflies. dear pillow, sorry for all the tears. sorry heart, sorry for all the damage. dear brain, you were right.

3. okay so there're 10 fishes, 2 died, 5 drowned, 1 got trapped in the filter, how many do you have left? stop counting idiot, fish don't drown.

4. i want to see my own funeral, i wanna see who will be crying, who will be there, but more than anything i wanna see who cares.

5. girl: what would you do if i broke up with you?
boy: i'll go back to my ex then.
*they broke up, and the very next day boy turns up at girl's house*
girl: what are you doing here?
boy: like what i said, i'll go back to my ex, so would you take me back?

6. "do i look okay?" ........... "when i see your face, there's not a thing that i would change" ..........
"dude chill, i was just asking if i looked okay"

7. what starts with F and ends with UCK? yes firetruck !! well what starts with a P and ends with ORN, you're right !! it's popcorn !!

8. boy: is your name google?
girl: noooo !! :( why would my name be google?
boy: cause you're everything i've been searching for =)

9. boy: you have a pen?
girl: yeah here.
boy: ummmm it's outta ink
girl: are you sure?
boy: don't believe me? fine you try it, go on write your number here.

10. elephant asked the camel "why do you have two boobs on your back?"
camel replies "that's a pretty stupid question coming from someone with a dick on his face"

11. student: how do you spell _______?
teacher: get the dictionary and look it up.
student: BITCH !! if i can't spell it, how in the hell can i find it in the dictionary.

SNSD jia you !!

2010-10-14T02:36:00.003+08:00

woah i dunno since when i started fan girling, and i really love SNSD !!! no other groups can actually impress me as well as they do. and i dunno what stirred me up so much that i had to post this. they said taeyeon had TERRIBLE singing in this first video (the one on the left is her), but listen to it, how bad is this?

she's singing a song she isn't supposed to be THAT familiar with, and of course, not to forget, she's a korean artiste, we all know the ang morhs and asian have different ways of expressing songs. MUST she sing exactly the same then called good singer? i wouldn't say she's perfect, but the anti-SNSD forums are making it so exaggerated like she can't sing at all =.=

and the anti-SNSD forum-ers claimed that she likes to make a molehill outta every single lil thing like catching a cold. was it her wish for things to be published in newspaper or what? how would you know all that's written is not taboo? i personally think that they are the ones who catch a point and burn the whole issue enough to start forest fires.

to further prove their insanity, the searches led me to this video:

damn kua zhang or what? and i realized most of these are done by the same group of people. like you too free or what? don't like then don't listen don't watch la, you jealous and sore that a lot of people like them meh.

at some part of the video, there was a guy from another boyband who threw up stuffs on a piece of tissue. they easily cooked up a story saying he had stomach problems -.- apparently bias-ed to SNSD lor, where's the evidence? and who say it's wrong to announce sickness? because it makes your fans worry? if my idol is that guy and he's this kind don't announce, later got big headlines he under serious observation dunno can live or not or what, which is more worrying? they expect artiste to be super heros ah =.= utterly lame lor, must tahan until wanna die then say out la, what kind of fans are they then. torture their idols.

pretty one like jessica, tiffany, and yuri, they say plastic surgery. more natural ones like taeyeon and yoona, they say plain. so what they want? can't even make up their minds.

taeyeon stand behind let her groupmates talk, they say no leadership skills, if she stand in front, equals to snatch limelight. i pity SNSD, they face such unreasonable scrutiny.

who ever did say leader must ALWAYS be standing in front. she just makes decisions in their content of work, like what kind of songs, which direction, and what style. why those people have to be so sickening seriously.

don't like them, don't buy their records, nor tickets to concert. don't even watch their youtube video, cause all the mess that they created, doesn't stop us from liking them at all. not one bit !! instead they do all those, will only bring more potential fans to their attention of this wonderful girls' group =))

OK rant finish liao. here are some of their photos =) only fans and +ve people need to comment !!

all in all, I JUST LOVE SNSD TTM !!!!!!!!!!!!! jiayou x3 !!

simply friends

2010-10-10T23:45:00.002+08:00

i miss these people and the fun. i wanna turn back time even before belle first flew to UK, way before that. our happiest times at the airport etc etc. right now i can only feel that there's not a single person around me that i can rely on, i wouldn't confide even when they offered to listen. before all these, it wasn't even about trust or not, we didn't even need to worry about what we said.

i hate growing that's it. i hate meeting people who're so complexed yet all of them look perfectly simple on the outside. i'm not a people kind of personality, i don't know what's going on in those ugly minds, and i'm really tired of guessing.

can we just have happy times like this?

beautiful birthday

2010-10-03T05:19:00.001+08:00

my friend's wife, Jophelia, who's also my friend la, celebrated her birthday today. and look at her cake, cute TTM !!!!! i can't resist posting this, hopes she doesn't mind =/

can i have ariel for birthday? LOL !!

what to buy

2010-10-02T07:50:00.002+08:00

ok previous post removed. my aim is not to create bad memories, but sometimes people just take your limits for granted. oh well, those who feel the urge to know, i still have the messages, but if you dunno me well, obviously quit asking.

ok main point for this post is about a birthday gift. yes it's mine, but don't worry i'm not asking anyone to get it =) the few things i wanna get for myself:

1) a new phone cause mine's quite chui. either a HTC desire, samsung galaxy, or iphone 4?

2) camera, cause i wanna take beautiful pictures. so canon ixus 130 it will be =)

3) a 32GB ipod touch, since i lost mine in the PC show.

4) a holiday trip with good friends.

which of the above should i reward myself with? feel free to vote and help me out be it in my cbox or facebook =) thank you !!

and a lil note which can contribute to this fund somehow: clicks my advertisements if you see any on my blog THANKS A MILLION !!

a series of unfortunate events

2010-09-26T07:11:00.003+08:00

my luck has been really down down down these days or even weeks. all of you lovely people, please share abit of my pain =[

1) have been having diarrhoea for a week, not the run-toilet-10-times kind, but everytime i go, it's diarrhoea. my body got no fibre intake meh?

2) no sales for roadshows.

3) cash flow problems, pay delayed.

4) i'm outta love, but that's ok, i don't seem to wanna believe it anymore.

5) i lost in mahjong, but well ..... who always wins?

6) holiday plans in oct have to be cancelled, cause of family reasons.

7) worst of all: i had a mini accident this morning. the bus i was travelling on e-braked, and i was sitting like the aisle seats those yellow colour one. so when the driver e-braked, i slammed my cheekbone and arms into the railings REAL HARD. and my cheekbone is still like numb and "dented" i feel, after half an hour. and my head's like spinning now. let me die of brain heamorrhage or something?

worse still, i can't complain or sue anybody, cause it's a bike who chiong-ed in front of the bus, not the bus driver's fault at all. but i feel damn poor thing, cause an auntie almost fell the bus driver apologized to her and helped her out. but i'm like squatting there in pain, all the way back home, like nobody see. i should have pretended to faint. *totally*

but it's like starting to hurt so much, oh man .... my face =[ and i'm damn scared cause it hit my upper jaw, later my teeth drop howwwwww. oh man oh mannnnn =[[[ i'm damn scared, lucky my house no mirror, if not i'll cry to see my face swollen.

HEEELLPPPPP !! =[[[

2010-09-23T09:41:00.001+08:00

"It's hard when u don't know what caused your sadness, but it's even
harder when you know what makes u happy yet you can't do anything to
have it."

it's hard when you have to let go of somebody you once had, but it's harder to let go of somebody whom you never had, but made a big difference in you.

sweetie sweet sweet !!

2010-09-22T23:38:00.003+08:00

wahhhh today on the train i saw a couple cuddling. the girl was soundly asleep in her boyfriend's arms, like almost dropping to his chest there la. then the guy held on to her forehead so that she won't strain her neck ma.

after like two stops, she woke up, and then they found out that she accidentally drooled on his shirt LOL !! but he didn't mind at all, of course she damn paiseh la. but all he did was a sweet smile as if to say "i love every embarrassing moment of yours" LOL !!

then you know we girls after wake up will feel irritated if our hair covers all over, so we'll just comb them back off our face. her hair was like messy la, the boyfriend still brush it nicely for her and said .............

"so pretty"

AWWWW so sweet ~ that's all for today =D hahaha !!

horoscopeeeee

2010-09-20T00:21:00.001+08:00

i found half of me in this :D

Scorpio Personality:

Beneath a controlled, cool exterior beats the heart of the deeply intense Scorpio. Passionate, penetrating, and determined, this sign will probe until they reach the truth. The Scorpio may not speak volumes or show emotions readily, yet rest assured there's an enormous amount of activity happening beneath the surface. Excellent leaders, Scorpions are always aware. When it comes to resourcefulness, this sign comes out ahead.

Scorpio Key Words:

Strengths:
Passionate, stubborn, resourceful, brave, a true friend.

Weaknesses:
Jealous, distrusting, secretive, violent, caustic.

Charismatic marks:
An intense look in the eyes, muscular.

Likes:
Truth, facts, being right, teasing, longtime friends, a grand passion, a worthy adversary.

Dislikes:
Dishonesty, passive people, revealing secrets.

Best environment:
Dark, sensuous places, any situation that offers power or rouses strong feelings.

2010-09-17T00:06:00.002+08:00

i don't cry doesn't mean i don't feel sad at all. even if crying 24/7, doesn't mean you're the only one who committed effort. i just don't feel the need to let the whole world know everything like you do.

for you to say that i break off with you easily, is an evidence that you never treasured the chances given. if you ever thought it was easy for me, why don't you come and be me?

you say that i'm unfair to you, but were you ever fair to me? have you felt the hurt in me even though i never cried it out. i did not, and i never will. because i don't bear to shed bad light on you, the same way you did to me. you say i'm heartless, fine. really, fine ...............

i hope everyone sympathizes with you, you need them so much. let this be the last thing i do for you ..............................................

hereby, i ask everyone to believe everything good or bad he says about me, stand by his side, because he needs all of you more than me.

that's all i wanna say to this relationship. it's over.

whatever was been, will be in heart.

2010-09-16T03:53:00.002+08:00

a little bit of alcohol and a little bit of silence sets my mind wandering off to the past. and brought me to this song, which is my currently blog song that shannen introduced me to.

this put me at peace, and i feel like i've found the calm that i want to surround me. and suddenly when i think of some things, i feel safe again. i miss the times when i didn't have to say a thing, for anyone to be able to understand me. because i know there's always somebody who would know. now that we're all grown ups, everyone starts getting too busy fighting for what they want, that no one really truly understands anymore.

even if my life is never gonna be the same as what it was before, at least i still have thoughts of you, me, and them. everyone that was ever there.

sometimes i think that, i still need you.

belle's 21st and farewell.

2010-09-14T01:36:00.006+08:00

YO everybody !! i'm back from darling belle's chalet with lotsa good memories, as well as flu bugs *sniff sniff* only have these photos which are from jasper's DSLR, very well taken !! the rest will have to wait till belle gets to come online when she arrives in UK.

on that day i simply couldn't get out of bed, thus i reached only at like 5plus in the evening?

the first few photos were taken when i wasn't there yet, and if i'm not wrong, this one is about the catered food which consisted of fried rice, sotong cheese ball, and longan sea coconut =) all yummy !!

the resort that we stayed in. rather pleasant, with free wifi most importantly lol. but the amount of space was barely enough for free movement. but what sucked most was that only 1 access card was given, so it made our entrances and exits quite inconvenient.

so i arrive with all my barang barangs, and jasper was there playing with his gadget, not really having any intentions of helping me with the gate lol. i look like some stranded girl in a jungle or something.

and will was very hard at work trying to start the fire with charcoals that were 5years old LMAO !!

cool shots of the flames and charcoal !! totally beautiful.

TADA ~~ the birthday girl. the foils seemed like they wanna kiss her hahaha.

engulfed in foils ~~

yappy and meng meng, the big burp haha.

you think your shirt red i scared? HAHA !!

in case you guys thought i was being greedy but look !! the food is raw, i cook not EAT lol.

isabelle and jasper the photographer.

far in the background you can see me and meng meng, which most of them said our back views look alike with similar dress codes and hairstyles.

belle, with indra and her friend (i forgot to ask her name =x)

isabelle + yappy = yak yak yak ?? ok i'm being super random.

"hello what time are you coming !! ^%&%^#%@$#$&*" ok i added that from my own imagination.

jump like a rockstar !!

clumsy love lol.

bended love hahaha.

belle and will, who was super happy over his long lost ring that was found in my house zzzz.

isabelle and her daniel kor. who pang seh-ed us for another party full of bikini girls huh.

later on, we surprised her with a cake, and we played mahjong for the night? i think ........... the next day was spent lazing around and talking crap. only about evening time we went to RWS to get sherilyn a gift, which we met some rude slut in the service line.

then we headed to sherilyn's party which was totally cool !! there were a few siblings of celebrities there. and a pool, plus very cool closet area in the room, and a lovely jacuzzi tub !! the whole party was just like clubbing with very good music, and great drinks.

we left the place half past midnight, and i got very lucky cause i manage to spot like 3 empty cabs in sentosa at that timing. time to buy 4D maybe?

boyfriend totally knocked out, so shannen, belle, and me, headed out to 7-11 to get food stuff. i have vague memory of whatever happens after that, due to 2 super very sleepless nights. let's wait till belle's photos are here, they might refresh my memory.

after the chalet, i can remember being very sick since i still am, but i dragged myself out to have sushi with belle and boyfriend, and we caught the movie "love cuts", storyline was good, but i guess the director not so luh haha. i still find the movie kinda wierd.

ok it's time for panadol and some rest, i might have to sleep on the floor again tonight as what it seems now =[

shits of life

2010-09-09T04:29:00.003+08:00

IF i'm pregnant now(i'm not), my baby will definitely turn out goddamn depressed, and grow up to be gothic or sadist.

fuck emo-ness

on the other hand, the very contrary, i can't explain the immense joy to have friends, the love for them is inexplicable.

Whenever I was at my verge,
They would be there for me.
Their encouragement and support were always present at low points of life.
And whenever I hated someone,
Even if it's somebody they barely knew through the knowledge of my words,
They hated them along with me. =]

what more can i ask for =) they gave me everything no one else could have given, friends are larger than life, and even the best goddamn thing i ever have in my life =) all that i want, and all that i need. they do the things i thought impossible, how did you guys manage to be so awesome !!